Thought of taking a break

I am taking a break.  I realize that I am spouting out too many I can do its.  I am also spouting out talks of just doing it.  They are not helping me.  I am lazy and I procrastinate.  I have difficulty following directions at times and my black and white thinking makes things worse.  I can say it is time for me to change, though it is.  I have yet to begin.  What am I waiting for?  Who am I waiting for?  Why am I waiting for?  Words jinx it.  Emotions jinx my weight loss.  Everything just seems so hard.  I know that there is more to life than food.  Maybe my last sentence is one of many issues I have facing my problems.  With all of this, I realize that the room and possibility for change is good, despite how grim it looks right now.  Man, I am lousy trying to encourage myself.

Strengthened by Jesus

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  Maybe I should just think outside the box when it comes to exercise.  Exercise is not only good for my body, it is good for my mind.  I don't think about anything that ails me.  I realize that I gave others a reason why it is important to exercise. It is very important for me to exercise.  Weight loss, is also a mental thing.  Right now, I am contemplating the fact that I can do this.  I will do this, and I want to do this.  

Questions to ask myself

The truth is, I have absolutely nothing to say.  However, I am quite interested in losing weight. However, I admit that I do have a binge problem.  Diet and exercise are not just physical, but mental. I had to learn that.  My heart wasn't in it, but now, it is.  I saw myself in the mirror and what I didn't see wasn't always so positive.  Why does it seem like I beat myself up yet when I see others with the same features, I don't begrudge them?  Why does it always seem that I don't like myself and my appearance?  It finally dawned on me.

Negative, realistic, and positive connotations

Walking around the house for an hour or so I realize are not exercise.  Walking briskly outside is. The first is what I do.  I realize that being inspired is not exercise.  Sure it is good for the brain, but what about the body?  My posts are generally not positive.  That is because I am a procrastinator who is too negative on herself in relation to what I know I can accomplish.  The whole blog is a blog of a person who does ever so often.  I however, want to be known to myself as a person who is healthy and associates myself with taking charge of my health.  I need to think higher of myself than I do.  I am always feeling lazy.  I have been afraid to take a long, honest look at myself.  It is one thing to write out change, but actually doing so, is the hard part.  The truth is, I want to learn how to dance.  I have tried it once before.  Zumba was fun...the word "was" carries way too much of a negative connotation.  Being realistic is easy, but taking a hard look in the mirror is as well.  So, what exercise will I do tomorrow?

How I am doing

Right now, I am doing better.  I have a lot of kinks to work out with my diet and (mostly lack of) exercise program.  It is time I stop complaining.  I complain too much anyways.  Right now therefore, I am just thankful.  I am thankful that every day is a second chance.  I have done stretches and such for my back.  However, I could do more.  The reason being because I have become overwhelmed.  I  have also waited too long for others to help me.  I need to just stay home and exercise.  I realize that I can't get others to exercise for me or wait to go to a gym for a good workout. Having written all of that, I have to think about me for a change.  No more all "talk" and procrastination.

Later.

Time for some action.

Break.

Later.