I have given up on myself.

I hate going in circles like this.  I brought it on myself.  I realize now that I have to make a change. For a long time, I expected others to do the work for me.  Now I have to learn to do things myself. It is a scary thought when it comes to exercise.  In this case, I was referring to motivation.  I need to lose over 120 lbs., or at least that is my goal.  I have an issue and that is a even greater source of discouragement.  I don't know what to deal with first?  I need to deal with the binge problem and the lack of motivation issue, but what else can I do.  Those are the last things I wish to give up on.