Tuesday, September 30, 2014

40 Years old

I am now 40 years old.  I now know that it is time to start working out.  I have yet to follow an exercise schedule which has been quite embarrassing for me.  Thankfully, I managed to lose weight despite the lack of said exercise.  I heard that the older one one gets, it will be harder to lose weight. If this is true, then I will be a 40 Year old PCOS sufferer who will have an even harder time losing weight.  What was I (not) thinking?

Monday, September 29, 2014

Stick to

I wonder which day should be a break day.  I need to make a brand new plan.  I realize and know to move a muscle.  I am active but I need to exercise.  There is a difference. I need a new plan that I can stick to.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Break day?

Today, on my break day, I have decided that I will exercise.  There are so much I can do.  I am an overweight diabetic and now I have had knee issues and bone issues.  I am not so sure if it is my weight or the aging process.  However, a bit of exercise will do me some good.

Saturday, September 27, 2014

The irony of fear

I am sorry but I have realized that I am too anxious to exercise.  It is an irony that I have I know.  I am just wrapped up in thoughts that are causing me anxiety.  I do wonder if any amount of exercise will help me overcome my fears and anxieties.  I need help for I am scared.

Friday, September 26, 2014

Procrastination

It is so true.  Procrastination is not my friend.  It is my enemy.  The problem is, I don't know which exercise to do.  I have been thrown off track for the past month.  I don't know how to get back on the saddle and that is bothersome.  What is a girl to do?

Thursday, September 25, 2014

What I have learned.

It is nearing the end of the month.  I realize that exercise has amazing benefits.  It could be very helpful with the obsessive thoughts and the mania I have been having lately.  I have a confession to make.  Not only did I not exercise today, but I was a bit too tired.  All I could think about was not getting healthy, but getting some shuteye.  Procrastination is not my best friend.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Time to do more

I realize that I don't need to start over.  I just need to start.  I have made plans but I have not followed through those plans.  Sure I moved and have been active but at the same time I feel like I have failed. It is near the end of the month and I am tired of complaining.  It is time I start doing and less time complaining.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Monday, September 22, 2014

I am happier today

I am a happy camper because I lost 2 lbs. this past week.  Sometimes I wonder how I did it.  Having cleaned up a house and taking care of three dogs will do that for you.  It did for me.  Now that is what I call exercise.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Not a happy camper

Today is my break day, since it is Sunday.  However, it seems as if today, I couldn't catch a break.

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Dogs that I am taking care of

Walking the dogs and taking them outside is quite a workout.  Trust me, this is definitely the case.  It makes one active mentally and physically.  I love myself more whenever I exercise.  It doesn't make any since yet I believe that exercise has much to improve one's self esteem and confidence.  I am anxious so the dogs have been very helpful in improving my physical condition.

Friday, September 19, 2014

A great way to start

Making a plan is a great start, but that is not what I am going to write about.  What I am writing about is to take better care of myself by moving around.  I haven't done any walking in a while but being active is just as good an exercise as walking.  However, a 15-20 minute walk may actually be a better exercise for me but I digress.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

I have been in denial

Lately I have come to realize that I have been in denial.  I am proud of the fact that I lost quite a few pounds in the last 3 weeks or so.  On the other hand, I have to be negative and say that I have not done any exercise today.  It has been said that I am supposed to workout at least 15-30 minutes a day.The truth is, I have barely exercised.  I have made no excuses and I will not do that today or ever.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Not a break

I have taken a break today as I had some work to do today.  However, shopping would be considered light exercise, wouldn't it?  I need help in planning my exercises like I am planning my meals.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Musing from 9/16/14

Seriously, I have no idea what I need to do except for changing my exercise routine.  The problem is, I had one, but I didn't follow it.  I didn't have the drive, or motivation to do so.  I didn't know where to begin anymore.  I may move around or even try to dance, but I tire at being at the beginning of every routine.  I wish I could advance myself but I guess starting from somewhere is better than starting at all.  Every Tuesday I take a break.  I would like to go for more than 15-20 minutes a day walking but I have made excuses.  It is true that my knee may be shaky and I have tumbled a few times.  Maybe it is a sign that physically, I am not 100%.  I have slacked off on my exercise routine.  I don't want to start over but I would like to actually do it.  Just go out there but I have little motivation because I try all the time and fail.  I also tend to lack focus with my diet and exercise routine.  I don't know if it is self-sabotage or something else, but whatever the case may be, this is something that I would like to overcome.

Monday, September 15, 2014

Dancing

Dancing does a girl good.  I am not a good dancer but it helps to try.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Change could come

I am taking a break today.  Sundays and Tuesdays are my break days, though things could change.

Saturday, September 13, 2014

My stride to hit

I had a dream last night.  I was about hitting my stride.  Well it is past time to continue to do so.

Friday, September 12, 2014

Hitting my stride

I have been walking today but not in the backyard.  I do need to go out more.  I walk outside for an average of 15 minutes per day, but I need to start walking outside.  I have yet to hit my stride however.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

I will make current plans.

I will make plans to exercise today.  I spent more than 20 minutes walking today, but not outside.  I do have to move a muscle even if it is 15 minutes of walking, 30 minutes of dancing, or even 20 minutes of strength training.  It has been a while since I have done some serious working out.  I will hit my stride.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Change of plans

I have not been exercising lately.  Today I will not take a break.  I will be active.  Every Sunday and Tuesday I take a break.  Maybe that needs a break.

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Musing about today

I am taking a break.  I realize taking a break is not the wisest thing for me but a break can do me some good.  Mentally it can do me some good but physically it is a no no.  I meant to exercise 15 minutes a week, but I feel like mentally I am unable to do so.  Changing my routine and going ahead has not always been my strong suit.  Now it is time that exercise becomes my strong suit.

Monday, September 8, 2014

How I am feeling today

There isn't too much to say today, but I am disappointed in myself.  I was supposed to walk for 15 minutes at least today.  I am not getting better today.  I am getting worse and I have gained weight because of it.  I am so down on myself and my lack of inactivity.  I wish to be more active and less self-conscious.  I realize that I have no idea where to start over again.  I have no equipment or anything like that so I feel like I have no room to breathe sometimes.  I feel guilty about that.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

I want to be fit and in shape

Spiritually I am doing better.  Mentally I am okay as well.  I have to take a break today however.  I take breaks on Sundays and Tuesday.  I am supposed to be fit and in shape by now, but there is no use crying over spilled milk.  I forgive myself and I am beginning to no longer be self-conscious. I have been self-conscious for a long time and it is not a good thing to have.  I would like to stop being self-conscious and love and respect myself.   I don't always like myself but I am looking forward to this journey and to keep the weight off.  That is my problem.  I need to lose weight, but I also need to honor, love, and respect myself and stop being so self-conscious.  I believe that a fat person can love, love, and respect myself.  Not all fat people are so self-conscious.  So God loves me for who I am. What I look like is not God's highest priority I think.  I would like to be God and look at my own heart.  Morals and character are what a person either has or don't have it.  I just don't think that God will love me less regardless of my size.  However, I think that God wants me to not be self-conscious and exhibit a lack of self-control.  Those things are what I need to work on.  I believe that I am not the healthiest person but that is my goal.  As long as I don't engage in eating that is moderate and promoting healthy eating, then I believe that is what matters the most, at least to me.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Great news

Today, my mind is clear.  I feel so much better.  Exercise has helped me forget all of my ills and all of my problems.  I did walk for at least half an hour.  I burned 62 calories today and I hope to burn more.

Friday, September 5, 2014

Exercise is good for the spirit

Exercise is good for the mind and for the spirit.  I had no idea that exercise is good for one's spirit.  I have been spiritually aware for a long time despite the issues that I have.  I have doubts about being born again.  I think that exercise does a lot of good.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

I want and need to change.

I want to exercise and I have skipped it.  I want to go back to exercising and eating healthy.  I am disappointed in myself.  What should I do?  I need to walk.  It is really a low impact exercise.  I am in need of exercising my mind but my body as well.  I want to be in shape.  It is sad that I am failing to do.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

My feet are killing me

I did some walking yesterday and last night.  My feet are killing me now.  I would like to walk more today.  I already have the schedule planned out.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Tuesday break day

I am on a break today.  I exercise five days a week and so this is the second day of my break.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Another break

My knee hurts.  It was my left knee.  I have gotten lazy and I was back to my own routine of unhealthy eating habits and exercise.  But no more.  I plan to walk at least 15 minutes per day.  I want, need, and desire to lose weight.  I took a break today which I shouldn't have.