Tuesday, March 31, 2015

My wish and desire

I wish now that I could have spent the afternoon doing exercise.  I have been anxious lately.  I realize that I don't need to do that.  Anxiety is not good for my health and neither are diabetes and being overweight.  I have lost weight, but now is not the time for excuses.  I may have planned this all wrong.  It should have been more than 10-15 minutes of exercise per day.  It should have been at least 20 minutes of exercise per day of brisk walking.  Of course, using a pedometer is of great help.

Monday, March 30, 2015

Exercise Regimen, March 29- April 4, 2015

Sunday, March 29, 2015
Break

Monday, March 30, 2015
Break

Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Break

Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Walk 10-15 minutes; record results with pedometer

Thursday, April 2, 2015
Walk/Shop; record results with pedometer

Friday, April 3, 2015
Walk 10-15 minutes; record results with pedometer

Saturday, April 4, 2015
Walk 10-15 minutes; record results with pedometer

I know that I could start off exercising, especially now since I have been in a depressed state today.  I also get that I should exercise more, but with the concerns that I have, this would be a good way to start off slow.

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Exercise Regimen April 6- April 12, 2015

Exercise plans

Monday, April 6, 2015
Walk 10-15 minutes;record using a pedometer

Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Stretch muscles for 5-10 minutes

Wednesday, April 8, 2015
Walk 10-15 minutes; record using a pedometer

Thursday, April 9, 2015
Stretch muscles for 5-10 minutes

Friday, April 10, 2015
Walk 10-15 minutes; record using a pedometer

Saturday, April, 11, 2015
Walk 10-15 minutes; record using a pedometer

Sunday, April 12, 2015
Taking a break

Saturday, March 28, 2015

A regimen.

I have decided to exercise four days per week for now.  I will start my regimen on Monday.  I plan to exercise on Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays, and Saturdays.  I could have started but I find myself not feeling so well.  No more excuses.

Friday, March 27, 2015

Being honest about the lack of exercise

Pacing around the house is a poor example for exercise.  I know that I am putting myself down, but that is what I did today.  I had a rough week with obsessive thoughts and sleep disturbances.  At least I had a good cry.  It is time for me to exercise.  I have been sidetracked for a while, but I cannot use it as an excuse.  I don't want to remain lazy and unmotivated.  I want to go out there and exercise.  It would benefit me greatly.

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Music+Exercise equals comfort

I have started today on a rather sleepy note.  I feel okay now.  Music is a great comfort to me. However, so will both music and exercise.  I am sure that they will provide twice the comfort. I certainly need it after the week I have been through.

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Slow walking

I did a little bit of slow walking this morning and some slow walking yesterday.  However yesterday, I wonder if there is a logic to slow walking just to eat doughnuts.  I know that it doesn't make sense, but that is how I feel.  I really need to get on the ball so to speak.  No matter how slow I walk, I realize that a slow walk would not do me any good without some healthy eating and some determination.

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Exercise Plan

Let me see:
I am a diabetic who is overweight, has PCOS, high blood pressure,and high cholesterol.  I also suffer from pain.  I am not sure if it is aging or weight gain.  I have no idea but I know that as I age, things have worsened.  I feel like my health has worsened over the years and I want and need to lose weight. I plan to lose over 100 lbs, which would not only lessen the pain, but would also alleviate or reverse the other symptoms.  That would be nice.  Sadly, walking is the only exercise that I know of to do, yet I am afraid of falling due to the arthritis.  I want to lose weight so I just have to count my losses so the speak.  My goals, specifically, are not just to lose weight but to keep it off.  My goal also is to lose 0.5-2.0 lbs per week, so that means that I would like to lose at least 5-10 pounds per month. I realize that I would have to change up on my healthy eating and exercise routine.  My goal for now is to walk for 10-15 minutes per day for four days per week.  I know it seems lazy and a low goal, but I realize and know that goals change overtime.  So far, that would mean that I would have to exercise, namely walk, 40-60 minutes per week.  I wish that I could walk or exercise for longer distances and more reps.  I have been to physical therapy twice and I feel so self-conscious about my weight.  I have been eating mindlessly. That is also something that I need to take care of.  My goal is to exercise for now only on Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays, and Saturdays.  I guess I have no good reason for why I chose those days except for the fact that I need some rest, or at least my body needs some rest.  Maybe I should make a plan or a table on what to do.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Formulating a plan

Maybe fear is too strong a word for me to use.  I have to admit that I was unmotivated yet motivated at the same time.  I want to start off slow and them work my way up.  How do I formulate that plan, I am not sure.  I have things to consider such as my weight and my goals.  I also have to consider my goals due to my overall health and what I am physical able to do.  Well, I guess it is time to consider all these things and formulate a plan; if only I know how to actually formulate a plan.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

The truth is..

How do I overcome my fears?  Should I just not give up?  Where do I begin?  I have diabetes and I cannot afford not to.  Lately I have been gaining weight and I am proud of this fact.  Over the past few weeks, I gained over 8 pounds.  That is not something to be proud of.  I am putting too much pressure on myself.  I would like to start right now, but I always procrastinate.  Exercise should be something that I enjoy as well as doing something of great benefit.  It has become a choir and since then, I have stopped.  I know that I am only hurting myself.  I just gave up yesterday.  However, I don't wish to do the same thing and continue on this path.

Saturday, March 21, 2015

I would like to be brought back to life

Maybe or starting today I need to get back to my own routine.  The problem is, I have no real routine. Today, I feel dead inside, at least a bit of sadness.  With such great sadness I dare say that I give up. Maybe I need to get some help.  I believe that I am lazy.  I believe that I have lost the desire to improve myself.  I hope that this is not the case.

Friday, March 20, 2015

Fear and the need to get back on track

I am doing better than I was yesterday, at least when it came to eating.  I read about mindless eating and overcoming binge eating.  I am concerned about myself and I don't feel good about myself.  I realize that this has nothing to do with exercise, but I need to write this down for it has to be said. Eating unhealthy has taken its toll on me.  I woke up with hip pain and I went to sleep last night with neck pain.  I have come to realize that exercise is the key, regardless if I am in pain or not.  Walking would also do me some good.  Getting up and walking around has also been of great help to me. It can be hard to sleep as it seems that one leg feels heavier than the other and my shoulders end up hurting. What is stopping me?  Fear.  That is what is stopping me.  I make excuses because of fear. I procrastinate because of fear.  I no longer take much, or any action because of fear.  I still fear mindless eating, poor health, and failure.  I realize that thought I overwhelm easily, it is time to get back on track.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

The consequences of mindless binge eating

I knew that this would happen.  I have gained weight.  It is because of a lack of proper exercise and a poor diet.  My diet consisted of anything that was in the kitchen.  I have an issue with binge eating and that is something that I have and need to overcome if I wish to lose weight.  My plan is to lose about 100 pounds, but I am worried that I won't be able to make my goal if I keep on binge eating like this.  I tend to eat mindlessly whenever I think I am hungry.  I wish that things would come easily for me.  I wish that I would just go ahead and exercise.  However, all of that is just an excuse.  I am concerned that I am not making progress.  I am not happy with myself right now, but I believe that all things are possible.

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Apology

I feel so sorry for disappointing myself, because I don't think exercise will do me any good with ALL of the food that I ate today.  I am disappointed that I did nothing healthy for myself despite my good intentions today.  Anyways, I have no excuses.  I have all but abandoned exercise and for that I apologize for not being so good to myself.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Tuesday is break day?

It seems silly but today is Tuesday and I take breaks on Tuesdays.  I have decided to maybe to exercise on Tuesdays.  It is crazy that I often choose Tuesdays in the first place.  I tend to get bored and isolated anyways.  I waste a lot of time asleep.  That is a time when I should have been exercising.  But what I am going to do during that time?

Monday, March 16, 2015

Foot and ankle problems

I have exercised to the point where my thighs are sore.  I have had problems also with walking and I also have had issues with my ankle.  Which exercises are good for those with foot and ankle issues? That is something I need to do research on.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

A redo of my exercise "regimen"

I didn't do any exercise today.  I exercise five days a well.  Well, at least that is what I am supposed to do.  I don't exercise on Sundays and Tuesdays.  Now I wonder if I should change all that.  I like to walk but I realize that I don't do enough.  I have no excuses for not walking.  My desire is to lose weight and keep it off.  I have been a great procrastinator but I would like to stop procrastinating.  I feel like I am sabotaging myself, but am I?  I wonder.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Exercise and abundance of food correlation

I wonder if exercise is worth it when I ate such unhealthy foods.  Will exercise do me some good when I ate quite a bit of unhealthy food?  Does it matter?  That is what I wonder.  I believe that while exercise is good for me, what is the best time to exercise.  Will the exercise do me some or any good after a big meal despite my wanting to lose weight? Yes or no.

Friday, March 13, 2015

Today I did some movement that has becoming second nature.

Exercise is becoming second nature to me.  There are some exercises for my back and my neck that I need to try out.  I have been suffering from back pain and also some foot pain.  I did other exercises today like a few stretches and lunges.  Of course, I could have done more but just movement is a good thing.  I admit that while the exercises didn't come with weights, I exercised and even did some walking and marching in place.  I wish I had an idea how many calories I burned doing that.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Yard work

I guess I have burned at least 200 calories today.  I am not a 150 lb person, but yard work does burn a lot of calories.  Yard work is what I have done this morning.  I worked for about an hour, which may be a long time.  However, exercise can be rewarding. Exercise is good for the joints I believe as well. I have been having problems with joints and my back for a while now and even though my feet are now tired, I am proud of myself.

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

What I did today

I guess taking care of dogs and walking are good for me.  Right now I am hot and tired.  I hope to exercise more like I have weeks ago.  I hope to resume exercise soon.

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Taking a break, however...

Maybe I need to take a break today.  However, maybe I should not.  I have grown tired of my weight going up and down.  To me that is not a sign of having great progress.  I am in need of help.  I receive help from a nutritionist but at the time I was so overwhelmed that it was difficult for me to eat healthy.  In fact, I also procrastinated to exercise.  I am not proud of any of this.  I feel like a failure because of my lack of will.  I don't wish to divulge how much I weigh, but I know that with a healthy diet and substantial exercise, I don't have to worry to be thrown off course.  It has been over a week since I did any exercise.  I was concerned that walking is the only exercise that I can do.  I wonder if I am more than physically able to do other exercises.  I have been having problems with pain for a while now.  I will have to take better care of myself if I wish for my weight to go down.  Losing weight should not be this hard; meanwhile I need to and know I can follow the simple advice of diet and exercise, which is no longer a chore.

Monday, March 9, 2015

Today's musing

Right now, I feel great.  I walked today but I did not walk as fast as I would have liked to.  Sadly I gained weight from the last week.  I ate a lot and thus I was binge eating.  I hope that it would no longer happen.

Sunday, March 8, 2015

I am not so energetic.

I wish I weren't so tired.  I am not as energetic as I was.  Today I am supposedly taking a break, but I walked.  Now my back is hurting but it was like that anyways.  I am worried that I have gained weight.  Oh well, that is what I get for not eating healthy and exercising.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

I am okay.

I might as well had a workout.  My thighs were burning and my feet hurt.  I spent a while slow walking.  I realize that I need to walk faster.  However, I feel energetic.  It is a great feeling to have.

Friday, March 6, 2015

I am feeling energetic.

My feet are as sore as they were yesterday.  Mentally and emotionally I am on a natural high.  I hope to be down to earth soon.  I am and will get more active.  I am doing better than I have been lately.  I am full of energy.

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Today's goal

Right now, I have been walking and now my feet are sore.  I still wish to walk especially since I have been overeating.  I feel like I am lazy because I skipped exercise yesterday.  I am doing better and I hope to make it a habit.  I have to push myself to exercise.  I plan to exercise now for a maximum of 20 minutes instead of 15.  I have lost weight and while things are not perfect, I plan to stay on my plan and eat healthy and exercise.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

I took a break yesterday.

Yesterday I took a break.  Today, I wish I could take a break.  However, I did walk but not from a dvd.  I wish I could walk and I need to push myself to exercise.  I will have to push myself so that I could exercise for more than 10-15 minutes per day.  Exercise should be good for worry and yes, I am worried.  I rather not give the reasons why, but I am worried.  I want to have my conscience cleared and make restitution for what I did.  I will be okay.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Break day

Today I take a break.  So far, so good.  I have been exercising five days a week, with an average of 15 minutes a day.  Sometimes I exercise more.  I know I have written about this but I have to push myself in order to work for more than 15 minutes per day.  I plan to exercise more next week.  Right now I am taking a break today.  On Sundays and Tuesdays I don't exercise but even in those days, exercise is optional.  I am beginning to love to exercise but like I say, I have to push myself because I make it a belief that exercise is more than just beneficial.  I have to work my muscles and what is so great about exercise is that I don't need extra equipment.  Walking is a great exercise even from a dvd.

Monday, March 2, 2015

Rambling on and on about exercise

I didn't exercise yesterday but today is the beginning of another week.  I exercise on average of 10-15 minutes a day.  I may have to change my exercise habits and my schedule.  I walk.  That is all I do.  I walk.  Walking is a good exercise.  I am not perfect so I don't always start the video off well.  I have to catch up with the exercise instructor depending on the video.  I have a pedometer but I don't know how many calories I have burned walking.  Maybe I should walk around the block or in the backyard. I know I am just rambling on and on and on, but I like to walk.  I plan to go shopping today and as I know full well, that in itself is a workout.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

3 mile Walk, part 2


I played this same video yesterday and needless to say I had a hard time keeping up.  It was only like that at first.  I am okay and I am not so sore.  Maybe that is a problem.  Maybe I should exercise more so that I should at least experience some soreness.  I played about 14 minutes of the workout and I was exhausted.  I am taking a break from exercise today.  I am thinking about extending the time I exercise a day.  I may have to anyways.