Thursday, June 29, 2017

I am just exhausted

Right now, physical exercise could be of great benefit.  Of course, washing what seems to be dozens of  dishes, taking out the trash, and other chores seem like exercise itself.  I am glad to have done all of this work today.  A little work has never done me any harm.  In fact, a little work has been kind to me.  However, my mind is still exhausted, or so it seems.  I just hope to get out of this blue funk.

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

At the moment,

At the moment, I am taking a break.  I hope to make another entry tomorrow.

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Okay

I am okay now.

Out of the blue funk

Lord,

Now I wonder if any sort of exercise can get me out of this blue funk that I am in.  Right now, I am just tired. 

In Your name,

Amen

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Heavy lifting

I am doing alright today.  As a matter of fact, I am doing so much better today than I have in a while.  I have to admit that due to heavy lifting and sweating it out, I dare say that I feel pretty good.  I have a long way to go in terms of exercise.  However, what happened today was a good first start.

Friday, June 23, 2017

Under stress

Lord,

I now wonder if I should exercise.  I keep reading that exercise is only 20% of the weight loss journey.  How is only 20% possible to lose weight?  That is like only 20% of the energy that I need to lose weight.  For me, that amount doesn't seem right.  I have procrastinated long enough and now my heart hasn't been in it to exercise.  I simply do not have any idea how to lose weight.  There have been times when I don't even want to lose weight despite the fact that I need it.  I am overweight, diabetic, I take medication, and I am under continual stress. Now, I have no idea despite all of that, if I should lose weight.  I could use Your help right about now.  I ask You, Lord, for wise counsel.  Your help will be appreciated, for I thank You in advance.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, June 19, 2017

Hop to it.

I have not exercised in a while.  Weight Watchers has an exercise section.  Okay, but I mentioned this because I have never focused on exercised. Even though I don't see myself in a positive light, I have not taken the time to "better" myself.  I have become lazy.  For most of the last ten years, exercise has been sporadic and while it feels good for the moment, my overall view of exercise is fun.  I realize that I wonder if I really take exercise as seriously as I should.  The actual point is that I take exercise and my overall health for granted. I have a wrong view of exercise and why I am supposed to exercise in the first place.  I have noticed that those who exercise a lot not only do it out of necessity, but also have the drive.  I have no real clue about exercise, nor have I taken enough time to care.  Hopefully that last thing that I wrote was not correct.  It does, however, see exercise as beneficial, but I have noticed that exercising seems natural to them.  They look to have a plan, a plan or two that have been hard to follow.  So, it seems that exercise seems as natural as breathing to them.  What do I know?  It is as if I need to understand and learn and ask.  Research can and maybe will be a friend of mine at least.  Hop to it.

Saturday, June 17, 2017

I want to start

As I was looking at myself in the mirror, I realize how much I hated what I saw.  I saw a misshapen fat person.  It was a person who didn't like how she look.  That was motivation enough to exercise.  My goal is to lose weight, and keep it off.  I want to not only love and be inspired by exercise, but also to actually exercise and love doing exercise.  I have seen an urgency to lose weight, but I have not seen an urgency to actually do something about it.  I want to actually do something about it.  I not only want to be fit, but to actually love and respect myself due to not weight loss, but to actually feel as if I accomplished a goal.  Now which exercise do I begin to perform?  Where should I begin?

Friday, June 16, 2017

Inspired

To pass the time, I have found myself posting up motivational songs.  I have also struggled with binge eating and low self-esteem.  It hasn't been easy to just push through something and doing so daily.  Exercise is one of those things.  I however, found myself inspired by crossfit.  It is hilarious that I found myself inspired by crossfit.  I have grown tired of always being a beginner when it comes to exercise.  I finally realize that I have to take responsibility for making a change.  It also doesn't feel good to not do anything about exercise when all I have to do is just walk for starters.  I have the equipment.  All it takes are shoes and clothes, oh, and also music and confident.  What is so hard about a brisk walk?  I cannot think of anything else.

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Creating an exercise regimen

Even though I have lost weight lately, I haven't done any exercise.  The latest exercise I have done was a walk.  I wonder now how to create an exercise regimen that I can follow.  It is not something that I am proud of.  I guess it is time I do some motivating myself.

Monday, June 12, 2017

Motivational Song:: "Rusty" by Lack of Afro

There are no lyrics for this song, but at least the video is slamming.  The video in itself is great motivation to exercise.  Okay, just to dance.  It is a great song to even dance to even if one cannot dance. By the way, "Soul Train" is one of my all-time favorite shows.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Motivational Song: Time for some Aksion by Redman




Time 4 sum aksion
Time 4 sum aksion
Time 4 sum aksion
Let's get ready to rumble
In this corner we have the funk body snatcher
P Funkadelic and I gotcha hard enough
That I can chew a whole bag of rocks
Chew an Avenue, chew an off street and off block
Then turn around and do the same damn thing to a soloist
'Cause Reggie Noble's pissed
I crush your whole brain frame
'Cause you couldn't maintain the funk
That have your rap style for lunch, chump
'Cause 92, I take a whole crew
Give them a punch of the funk
Knock all of their gold tooth loose
To show you what type of stuff I'm on
You can't puff or sniff it
Because I was born with it
The Funkadelic Devil, hit you with the rap level of 10
Then 1, 2, 3, you're pinned
I get action, so everybody jump with your rump
If you like the way it sounds punk
Pump it in your back trunk
And let loose with the Juice when I do rock
I'm too hot, some say I got more Juice then Tupac
(Straight outta Jersey)
You heard me, my brother I'm laughin'
Time 4 sum aksion
Time 4 sum aksion
Time 4 sum aksion
Lights, camera, cock back the hammer
Straight from the land of the lost
I'ma hit you with the funk force
That makes you run your rap style back to the crack vile brotha
Then strike a pose like Madonna
My mom's kicked me out because I did what I want to
The original P-Funk stroke a trunk of funk
Then you saw caps 'cause my jaw snaps with the raw raps
So color me bad, plus color me black
For the funk that I pack, Red freak it to the funk track
The funky fly stuff
Come on and let me kick, the funky fly stuff
Just to show you where the hell I come from
I get dumb with the 112
Check my rep, I'm a hit when I have sex like this
Make you twist to the list
Of a funky brain cell when it's puffed on a spliff
And all that, the hi hat, go buy that
Listen, look, oops, brother where your eyes at?
There on the floor, pick 'em up
While I pour a lil' funk down your brain punk
Listen to my name chump
Redman ready to rock, I got a glock
Then, pow, your body is all over the block
Tryin to step to ths, the Exorcist, kick it
I git mad wicked when the twin cocks the biscuit
And blow your head off, just for askin'
"Who's the one rappin?"
Time 4 sum aksion
Time 4 sum aksion
Time 4 sum aksion
Yo, 1992, Redman gets paid, yeah, know what I'm sayin'
We not goin' for the Okee Doke, believe that
Hit Squad is definitely in the house
For the brothers that don't be knowin' what's up?
Word is bond, I gotta show them the flava
Back to the funk track, like Black Sheep
My man, he say, "Who's the Redman?"
"Where's the Redman?"
I kill, I smother, I get down with the
Yo, yo, yo, chill, G, chill la, it's over man
You ain't gotta say no more, it's over

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

My Exercise Bikes by Susan Gage

My Bike exercise Ride

I have a bike , that stand still 
No matter how much I peddle
But when Im riding this bike ,
I'm off in a dream a yonder 

Im off to all the places 
That I would love to go
I ride my bike to the sea
And all the way home

I go up in the mountains
And the cloud is down below
the sun shines all the time 
And there's snow all around

I love to ride my bike 
It takes me to my dreams 
I so enjoy my morning ride 
In among the trees

All the tracks around the wood 
And though the tall bracken
The birds sing amongst the trees 
And the woodpecker keeps knocking

And on a new dawn when I'm wide awake 
I can cycle  to the lakes 
There's  Rhododendrons  all in bloom 
A bright purple shower 

the water ripples in the breeze
And hovering just above 
Is the most beautiful dragon fly 
It's blue and green and silver 

And flying over the Lillie pads 
Are tiny knatts all hovering
And all the lilies are out in bloom
A wonderful pink splender 
 
I can go off into town 
In all the hustle and bustle 
And stop and talk to any one 
And talk about the weather 

The market stalls are so busy 
Selling  there fruit and veg
There's lots of bargains you can buy 
My dream just carries on 

And As I peddle off again , 
I'm think we're to go, 
I can go any where 
My dreams would like to go

And even though I'm standing still
You only have to close your eyes 
And dream of all the places 
Your exercise bike might ride

Susan Gage.
 
https://www.poetrysoup.com 

Saturday, June 3, 2017

From May 22, 2017

Pouring my heart out on this particular forum entry...

Father,

I usually don't write prayers on this journal.  However, I felt it necessary to write one today.  I realize that I need to make changes to my diet and exercise regimen.  To be honest with You, I don't have a regimen.  I don't wish to remain the way that I am.  Losing weight is hard.  I  have a feeling that I am making it harder on myself.  I want to be healthy and not complain.  I want to not to just exercise, but to push through the exercise.  There are times when I don't wish to exercise, no matter how many pairs of shoes I have, how many track suits I have, or the amount of motivation I have.  I have considered myself lazy.  I don't believe that calling myself lazy and even not caring have made things worse, at least in my psyche.  The truth is, I don't really know where to begin.  I also know that I need to eat healthier; I need to make some changes in that area as well.

 Grant me patience and wisdom.  Make me wise as far as how to lose weight and grant me the patience to not give up, no matter how hard it will be.  My goal is that no longer how hard it is and will be, I will not JUST push through it, I will actually follow it.  I do procrastinate, I admit, but I do want to get healthy and be healthy.  I no longer want to stay stuck in the past as far as my mindset goes.  I ask for a change of perspective when it comes to how I really see myself.  I often don't see myself in a positive light and I would also like to.  I have become more self-conscious over the years.  I have also become less healthy over the years as well.

I would like for nothing more to actually see myself as I truly am, and most of all, how You truly see me.  That may be the hardest thing to accomplish, seeing myself.  I constantly see a reflection and I am not happy with what I see; I want to change that.  I need help.  I need assistance.  I just don't know what to do and where to begin.  Over the years, I have made so many plans I have ended up not following them.  I would also like to think outside of the box and also be consistent, but that is hard to do.  Lord, guide me and help me see the truth about myself and about all else.  I thank You in advance for giving me the opportunity to write out this request to You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen