Lack of exercise

I have made plans to exercise 30 minutes per day for 4 days a week.  I have to push myself to exercise.  I don't also know where to begin when it comes to exercise sometimes.  I realize that it will take time to get used to exercise and keep going.  I have struggled with my weight for most of my life.  My total lack of exercise is a major problem.  However, I know I can do this.

Doing Pilates for the first time

Today, I am supposed to do Pilates.  That has been a part of my plan for today.  I have no idea what I am doing when it comes to Pilates.  So far,so good.  I have tried Pilates yesterday for a few minutes. Exercise not only does a body good.  Exercise does a mind good as well.

My visit yesterday

Over the years, I have been making plans off and on concerning exercise.  I just wish I had not stopped exercising.  Yesterday, I went to my appointment and I finally realized that I have spent more time struggling and less time actually accepting the fact that maybe, just maybe, that I have made some successes.  However, it doesn't hurt that I can do a few things.  I doesn't help that I am always putting myself down.  I have woken up to that fact.  Exercise is and will remain very important to me.

Reflection for today 2/5/16

Today, I have been resting from exercise.  After all, today has been my rest day.  Rather, today is a rest day from exercise.  I have trouble following a plan that I have created.  I just have no clue what I am doing.  I have focused so much on my weight that I have ended up being unhealthy.  My weight is something that is important to me, but it has become like an "idol" of sorts.  I want and need to lose weight, I have struggled.  That is not something that I am proud to admit.  I have struggled constantly even when it comes to a plan, diet and exercise.  I tire of the struggle and the over-focus on my weight. I just don't know what I am doing.

My plan for this week...I am bummed

2/1  Zumba, 5 minutes
2/2  rest
2/3  rest
2/4  weigh myself, walking, 5 minutes
2/5  rest
2/6  stretching, then walking, 5 minutes
2/7  Pilates

What is wrong with me?  It is as I have a project to do yet I am unable to start or complete the task.  I frustrate myself.  I guess it isn't too late to do something about it.  Calm thyself.  I am just bummed. That is all.