Wednesday, September 30, 2015

"Ain't Nobody" by Debra Killings


Today is my 41st birthday and this song is keeping me pumped up.  Sometimes exercise is not just physical but mental.  Today I am mentally fit and have been for much of the day.  I feel so good right now as I am typing this.  I guess it took a while but I realize that with age comes wisdom.

Monday, September 28, 2015

These songs get me pumped up but in different ways...

 "Dark Horse" by Katy Perry ft. Juicy J.


 "Teutonic Terror" by Accept


 "Brave" by Sara Bareilles


 "For Whom The Bell Tolls" by Metallica


 "Ride the Lightning" by Metallica


 "Get it on the Floor" by DMX


 "Connected for Life" by Mac 10 ft. Ice Cube, WC, Butch Cassidy"

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Pushing myself

I am taking a break for now.  I have been given advice.  I need to just push or rather force myself to exercise.  Making a plan for exercise requires me to be realistic.  I would like to know how I can do that. Where do I begin?

Friday, September 25, 2015

Reminders and encouragement

Today is just a continuation of yesterday.  I was told I can do it.  I had a hard time believing it.  It is no longer time to be realistic.  I am reminded of what will happen if I don't exercise.  I have put so much pressure on myself that I just gave up.  I also have to remind myself that even a little mistake or a day skipped doesn't have to equal a time to give up, sort of speak.  I need to learn how to plan my exercises like I plan my meals.  I think and know that this can be done.

Thursday, September 24, 2015

Sobering news for today...

Today I got some news that was quite sobering.  This is supposed to be a forum about exercise and the effects of exercise including the results of exercise.  Lately I have not done so.  Losing weight is hard, but I realize that my mindset too is making it even harder.  I start off well only to give up.  That will be my "downfall" if I don't do something about my health.  I am not afraid, but what if I don't have time?  What if things get worse?  What if I will never overcome my fears, the fears that I am living right now?  Those are questions that I don't have time to waste answering for myself.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Three days later

It has been a couple of days.  I admit that I have not exercised since I last posted in this blog.  I just stopped caring...until today.  I am in such pain today.  I have noticed that even the littlest of movements can relieve pain just as well if not better than pills and potions.  Tomorrow I have a plan to exercise in the morning.  I realize that I have spent so much time online that I have neglected other things.  I complain often about things that I fail to do.  The problem is, I am supposed to do them.  I don't wish to get credit for things that I am supposed to do however.  I am here to say that there is nothing like taking care of one's body by eating healthy and exercise.  Simple as that.

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Taking care of animals

Today, I took a break from exercise, unless you can count taking care of animals exercise.  I guess even a little movement can be productive.  Animals, especially dogs, can be harder to take care of more so than cats.  I have a cat so I would know.  If only I wore my "exercise" watch today, then I would know about how many calories I have burned not only all of the sweat that was pouring down my brow.  It was hot outside today.

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Today's results 9/19/15

Calories burned from exercise: 289

Spark people calories burned: 336

Pulse rate :103

For nearly 27 minutes, this is quite good.  This makes me even more motivated to exercise.  I know that I need to exercise more.  Over the months, I have gained quite a bit of weight, but I promised that I will lose the weight and keep it off.  For the first time in a while, I finally did some more serious exercise.  It burned calories and it took my anxiety away.  Today was a good day.

Friday, September 18, 2015

Exercises to incorporate into program 9/19/15

Exercise 1 6:30-7:00 AM
Yoga or walking

Exercise 2 10:00-10:20 AM
Dancing


This is my exercise plan for tomorrow morning.  For a while I did not exercise.  I am not actually lazy, but the reason why I was procrastinating was because of the fact that I hate exercises that I don't like to do.  I do like to walk but with me I don't finish what I don't start.  I know myself well enough to know that I get into something only to just falter.  I just gave up, but now is not the time to give up. I have decided to incorporate exercise into my diet and exercise program.  This is just the first.  I will give the results and the spark people results into my program tomorrow.  I look forward to it.

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Yoga and some results

I was wrong for writing this yesterday:
I have a rather short reflection for today.  I tried yoga this afternoon and while I felt the "burn", I wondered how effective yoga is as a whole.  Is it a real exercise?  That is something I need to "google", I guess

The truth is, I did do some stretching yesterday and while it doesn't burn many calories, it is quite beneficial.  It is the beginning or at least should be the beginning of a workout.  Stretching improves flexibility and supposes to help one to recover from injuries or at least prevents injuries.  I wonder if that is why people try yoga and pilates for pliability.  Is it really true that it helps to lose weight?  I have downloaded a few videos, so now is time to try.

BTW, I did a little bit of yard work this morning, but sadly it was not much.  I realize that exercise is good for the body but also the mind.  I feel great this morning.  I did feel better after a bit of work. According to the Spark People website, I burned 186 calories today.  If only I had worn my watch to determine how many calories I really burned according to it today.

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Yoga reflection

I have a rather short reflection for today.  I tried yoga this afternoon and while I felt the "burn", I wondered how effective yoga is as a whole.  Is it a real exercise?  That is something I need to "google", I guess.

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Exercise is beneficial

I realize that walking is beneficial for me.  It is safe and easy.  That is the type of exercise I need to do.  I have exercised before, so why not now?  This is as good time as any.  I have made the decision to take charge of my health.  I realize that I went about my goals all wrong.  Yes, I have a goal of losing 120+ pounds, but keeping it off is really my true goal.  I don't wish to get too comfortable in my own skin.  I am not.  In fact, I have become too self-conscious about my weight and especially my appearance.  I hate my stomach and my backside is too small.  I feel like I am not pretty or smart or strong or have my own power.  Exercise will help me in that  matter.  I don't wish to put my shirt down to see a massive stomach.  I have become too self-conscious as a result.  Incorporating exercise along with the struggle of consuming healthy food will not make losing weight easy, so it will be a challenge.  The challenge will be worth it.

Monday, September 14, 2015

I have given up on myself.

I hate going in circles like this.  I brought it on myself.  I realize now that I have to make a change. For a long time, I expected others to do the work for me.  Now I have to learn to do things myself. It is a scary thought when it comes to exercise.  In this case, I was referring to motivation.  I need to lose over 120 lbs., or at least that is my goal.  I have an issue and that is a even greater source of discouragement.  I don't know what to deal with first?  I need to deal with the binge problem and the lack of motivation issue, but what else can I do.  Those are the last things I wish to give up on.

Sunday, September 13, 2015

A little movement is too little.

What is wrong with me?  For one, I do procrastinate.  I do believe that it stems from giving up so easily.  I need not give up so easily.  My health is fearfully in decline.  I have back pain, which has worsened, for one thing.  All I can say is that I am motivated.  I even did some movement today. However, a little movement isn't going to cut it.


Saturday, September 12, 2015

Great exercise



Wow!  That is what I call great advice.  This is a motivating picture above.  I realize that as a person who is neither fit nor skinny, it can be discouraging.  I need to ignore my own self sometimes.  I am flawed, that is true.  I find myself concentrating on my flaws too much.  However, today is the day that I have finally realized that it is not too late.

Friday, September 11, 2015

"Mistakes are proof that you are trying"

I don't know who wrote this quote, but I should be able to relate to this quote.  Maybe I do.  I haven't given up fully.  My goal is to exercise one day at a time.  There are always rules that I wish to follow. It can be yard work or even a brisk walk.  I have wasted a lot of time doing nothing and little time doing something.  To be honest, I don't want to just try.  I want to do something and be fit.  How do I go about doing something?  It matters because I have this all or nothing mindset.  Mindset is something that is very important for losing weight and being fit.  Wow, if only I was deep sooner.

Thursday, September 10, 2015

How I'm doing today

I am okay.  I am also just tired.  I was also just depressed.  I was and still am, clinically obese.  I went to the doctor yesterday and I have gained a lot of weight.  In fact, I realize that I am living out my worst fears.  I find out that I am just tired of the daily grind.  It is so sad that exercise is not a part of the daily grind.  My life is just boring.  I have grown tired because I am tired.  I am also fearful and I wish that I could change.  I have no excuse.  I have become lazy.  It is time that my blog becomes more or less a traditional exercise blog.

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

My need, help, and desire help

I need help.  I want help.  I desire help.  I have been on a binge lately and I wish that I could just exercise it off.  I realize that instead of taking action, I have made too many excuses.  That wasn't what I wanted to do.  As a matter of fact, I want nothing more than to live out my worst fears.  This was one of my worst fears.  How do I overcome that and just exercise?  What goals do I have?  How many minutes?  Where do I exercise at?  I am just somebody who just has the heart for myself and those who wish to take charge of my health.

Monday, September 7, 2015

Taking time off

I will be taking a break for another day or two as I am one who just hates exercise.  I have not put up any results in a few days is that I make too many excuses.  I wonder if I should change my diet first then exercise.  I have difficulty connecting the dots when it comes to exercise.  Help...

Sunday, September 6, 2015

Re-post from 9/4/15

I realize that I do sleep too much.  The amount of time it takes to exercise could replace the amount of sleep I engage in.  It took me a while, but I know that I can do it. I have done it before.  By the way, I will be doing some yard work with that taking off many calories, which I also need to do.  I have consumed an average of 3000-4000 calories for the past three days, which is at least a pound of food per day.  I have to follow the plan that is set up before me, so that I would become healthier and more fit.

Friday, September 4, 2015

Realizations for 9/4/15

I realize that I do sleep too much.  The amount of time it takes to exercise could replace the amount of sleep I engage in.  It took me a while, but I know that I can do it. I have done it before.  By the way, I will be doing some yard work with that taking off many calories, which I also need to do.  I have consumed an average of 3000-4000 calories for the past three days, which is at least a pound of food per day.  I have to follow the plan that is set up before me, so that I would become healthier and more fit.

Thursday, September 3, 2015

For the past two days

Yesterday, I have business over 400 calories due to my shopping trip.  The average shopping trip for me lasts over two hours.  It was all worth it.  However, I realize that consuming 4000 calories is something that I can't exercise it out during the course of a day.  Today however, I have not done much movement.  I walk here and there but it isn't of much effect.  I will need to exercise all of those exercise calories off.  I have lost too much weight to go back and give up on myself.

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Reflection for today 9/1/15


Tomorrow I will go shopping.  My average shopping trip last over two hours.  I wonder how many calories that will be.  Tomorrow, I will also weigh myself.  My hope is that I have lost weight.