Results for 12/31/14

Results for today:
Calories burned 42
Speed: ~ 2.52 mph
Time of exercise: 13 minutes on a stepper plus 47 minutes of stretches

Tuesday break

I took a break today.  I have said this.  I need to stop.  It is time.

Results for 12/29/14

Results for today:
Calories burned 40
Speed: ~1.96
Time of exercise: 15 minutes plus 45 minutes of stretches.

Exercise plan fail

I have formed an exercise plan earlier this year.  I thought that back then I was 100% committed.  No matter what the circumstances were, the only one who was holding me back was me.  I threw myself off and I don't wish to say I never recovered but needless to say, I have yet to hit my stride.  I exercise and move around, but aerobic and anaerobic exercises are things that I haven't done in a while. According to the plan, I would take a break on Sundays and Tuesdays.  I remember that more so than anything else.  Exercise isn't fun anymore.  Despite the benefits of exercise, I have learned to not like it.  It is not strenuous.  I am always a beginner.  I have no clue how physically able I truly am. Physically I am not in shape yet I have no real desire or 100 % commitment to exercise.  It is wrong to have this but I definitely need a change in mindset.

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100% Commitment

I am not as tired as I have been yesterday.  However walking did me some good even if it wasn't a brisk walk.  I have begun to grown weary of whatever lack of progress I believe I have.  I don't even know the results I have.  I am out of shape mentally and physically.  In order to lose weight, I have to be 100% committed to not just diet, but also exercise.  I would like more positive posts about my exercise regimen and weight loss progress.  That will be my only goals, other than to be in shape mentally and physically.

Movement and exercise for Christmas

If Christmas preparation and washing dishes are not exercises, I don't know what is.  It may not qualify as an aerobic exercise, but it should.  Okay, I did walk for nearly half an hour however.  I hope it at least did me some good.  I consumed a lot of food today.

Christmas preparation

Unfortunately, I didn't get to exercise much.  I believe that working hard and making preparations is an exercise unto itself.  Ironically, whatever calories I burn will be replaced with food, food, and more food.  I will exercise it off, but later on.  lol

Today's results for a Tuesday for a change

I took a break today...mostly today.  However, I did some cleaning and also some walking.  I may have burned no more than 100 calories today.  Other than that, I have taken a break today.

I hope this counts

The fact that I did some cleaning as well as cooking and sampling is exercise in itself.  I know it is not enough, but I have wondered a lot of things about myself and what I need to do to get in shape. I need to know how many calories I actually did burn today.

This weekend

Unfortunately I have no results to give.  I did not exercise.  However, I wonder if cooking is an exercise.  I also wonder if cleaning and lifting heavier objects also qualify as exercise.  This past weekend I didn't rest all day.  I actually did some work and it wasn't easily.  If only I know the results such as the calories I burned this weekend.

My results for today 12/19/14

Results for today:
Calories burned 33
Speed: ~2.48 mph
Time of exercise: 10 minutes plus 40 minutes of stretches.

Having a bad back is no joke.

I haven't done any exercise today.  I did mean to do some slow walking today.  On the other hand, I did manage to lose a pound.  I tried to do some exercise today.  I did some stretches but I was way too tired to do any kind of walking.  I was in such pain yesterday that it put me to sleep.  I have some answers, but I cannot pinpoint what was going on.  I was also nauseated, which is also not fun.  I exercise so that my back needs to be straightened due to a bad back.

Tuesday is a break day...

Every Tuesday I take a break.  My reasoning is that I have an appointment every Tuesday.  As a matter of fact, I have had breaks every Sunday and Tuesday.  It is based on an old schedule that I have made and that has stuck.  In that schedule, I was to work out 5 days a week.  I would like to exercise for even five minutes a day.  I am not as active as I once was.  If I were to have a New Year's resolution, I would plan a diet and exercise schedule and follow it. 

Lifting hay

Today, I did some lifting.  I helped my mother lift bags of hay today.  It wasn't back breaking but it did some work on my thighs. I honestly don't know how many calories I have burned per hour, but I believe that it is more than 100 calories in that hour.  I rarely raked the leaves today but at least the yard looks great.

Sheet of exercises

I have a list of stretches that I need to do.  The purposes are to strengthen my back and to improve my posture.  I wonder if another goal is for me to lose weight.  I have done none of the stretching, at least for a while.  Taking it seriously is something that is good advice for me.

Calories burned doing yard work

Doing yard work is quite a workout.  I burned an average of 250 calories per hour.  I worked almost 2 hours which would be 500 calories.  Yard work isn't hard but it isn't easy either.  Neither is lifting heavy bags which can be stressful on one's back.  All and all, I am doing well today.

Results for 12/12/14

I was using the stepper this morning for 12 minutes.  I also used music which is quite the motivator. The results are 2.4 mph with an average 150 calories per hour.  In other words, it was a bit slower than yesterday; the average amount of calories was 32 calories for the entire session.  Other than that, I learned about exercises that would help with the misalignment of my pelvis and exercises for the core and glutes.  The average session is 45 minutes.

Today's results

Number of calories burned; 32
Miles per hour: 2.6

These are the results that I had today.  I used a stepper while during physical therapy.  It didn't seem like 10 minutes.  Ten minutes have helped to work on my core.  Today I feel pretty good about the results that I have.

Dancing

I cannot dance.  However, I feel like dancing, lol.  I didn't do much in the dancing department but learning how to dance would be wonderful for me.  It would help me very much with my back.

Tuesday I took a break

Tuesday is a day when I take my breaks.  Now I wonder if I should even do that.  Tuesday should be a day that I exercise.  It is time to rethink how I exercise and when I exercise.

Movement for today

I gained weight.  I gained 6 pounds and I am not happy about that.  Maybe I feel just fine and I did do some exercise, which means that I may have gained muscle.  I feel okay about the weight gain. However, to a diabetic, weight gain is an issue and having PCOS means that I need to change my diet and my exercise routine.  I did however do a slow walk and some dancing today.  I did some movement though I should do more strenuous exercise.

Ebbs

I took a break from even the slowest exercise.  Now I wonder if I should even take a break...ever.  I am hard on myself because I go in ebbs.  My weight goes up and down and so does my motivation to exercise.  It is an ugly cycle that it hard to break.

Slow walk

Sadly, I only took a slow walk for just a few minutes, if even that.  I have no idea how many calories, if any, my slow walk burned.  That is what I get for not taking the pedometer with me.  The average slow walk for an hour is about 20 calories at most.  I feel like a productive person when I exercise.

Physical therapy today

I went to the physical therapist out of town for the first time today.  I missed exercising that would include a sitting "step-climber" or a slow walk.  I also need to stretch my muscles.  This would be good for my back.  I spent between 10 minutes on the sitting step and about 5 minutes on doing stretches and tightening in muscles.  So it has been a while since I have done any kind of workout (other than yard work or shopping).  Today, I burned 30 calories and "walked" for 10 minutes at 0.2 miles.  Unless my math is wrong, it is a rather slow 1.2 mph.  Oh well, it is better than nothing.

Yard work

Today, I helped with the yard work.  I wished that I had taken the odometer with me.  That would determine the calorie count.  I was there for an hour and I will estimate it to be 20 calories.  Today was a rather decent day yet I wasn't the least bit tired.  Maybe because the yard work was light. Heavy yard work for 2 hours work would be at least 300 calories.

Not a great testimony for me I admit

Despite my aches and pains, I have decided to forge on.  Forging on means to move around and exercise.  While I don't do much, at least I am doing something.  However what I do is nothing to brag about.  I realize that while change doesn't come easily for me, I know that it is not impossible.

The science and artistry of exercise

I believe that there is more to exercise than stretches and dumbbells.  There is the fitness and the science behind exercise.  With the changes in the body and in the mindset comes not just science but an artistry to it.  Meanwhile I was given another sheet but this time for the neck.  There was a little bit of degeneration but the real pain was a muscular pain.  In other words, I had a tension  headache.  A little stretching can do me some good, well, at least more than it has already done.

Minor stretching

I did some stretching exercises to straighten out my back.  I have been having back problems over the past few months. While they have not incapacitated me, they are painful.  I have been seeing an orthopedic who in my opinion has been helpful to me.  I don't wish to skip the exercise and not be compliant.  In other words, my back is fine.

Happy Thanksgiving musing

A warm wish for us all.  Let us be thankful and fit.  I know it won't be easy at least for me, but I will try.  I realize that exercise doesn't have to be a chore, but something that is fun and something of value.

All is Well

So far, all is well.

No entry.

No entry.

Am I crazy?

I am in the mood to give up on diet and exercise as well.  How do I change?  Am I willing to change? Am I normal?  What is wrong with me?  I am a person who...I have a confession to make.  I know exercise makes me feel better, yet I hate exercise.  I have lost the will to improve my life.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel however.  Exercise is good for me.  I have to move a muscle before it is too late.  I feel so down about myself.  I have every reason to exercise yet I have no real desire.  Why is this?  Help me.

About today...and maybe in the near future

Yesterday I found myself doing over 2 hours of yard work.  Meanwhile I find myself doing absolutely nothing.  I have only paid attention to the details but not the big picture being my health and what I am supposed to do everyday.  Should I even take a break?  I have gained weight over the years and I have not made much progress over the past year.  I should be doing stretches for my back. Meanwhile, I usually find myself being critical of my lack of an exercise plan.  It is as if I need to start all over again. but what good would that do?  I have lost some weight since I have burned calories yesterday, but I no longer have a clue on how to follow a diet and exercise plan, not anymore at least.  Tomorrow I guess would be an excellent start.

Doing yard work this morning

Doing yard work is most certainly a workout.  However I take quick breaks during all of the yard work.  I wish I had taken a pedometer which would give me an idea of the number of calories that I have burned.  I weight nearly 300 pounds, which more than likely I burned more calories than a person who weighs 150-200 pounds.  I would have lost an average of 250 calories per hour, which would be the fact that I burned nearly 500 calories doing the work that I did on my own this morning.

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Slow walk

I realize that any kind of movement is better than none.  I know that according to this blog, that I need to be more consistent and to have a plan and stick to it.  For nearly every day, I slow walk for up to an hour or two.  However, I believe that I need to move a muscle and do more strenuous exercise. I am more concerned because I need to watch out more for my health.

No entry.

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Stretching my neck

Today I did try to stretch my neck.  Today or since last night, my neck has been in pain.  I do not believe that it aggravated the pain but it did little to alleviate it as well.  On the other hand, I guess I have to realize that no pain is no gain.

Stretch

I have stretched today.  I went to the sparkpeople website and unfortunately a five minute stretch burns only 2 calories.  On the other hand, at least I did something somewhat useful and did not take a break today.

Entry for 11/15/14

I took a break today, other than the fact that I walked and such.  I have not done any stretches today, even though my back is doing better.  Well, so far.

Stretches for back pain

I know I haven't written much in a while but I promise this will not be an entry on procrastination.  I have been having back pain and I have done some stretches which have not only aggravated my back, but it has helped my back at the same time.  I do wonder however, if my exercise schedule is a good thing.  I have been diagnosed with a degenerative disc problem and so far, exercise has done me some good.  I am not sure if I have lost weight or anything, but at least it has been beneficial.

New plan

I have made a diet and exercise plan and I feel so much better about this plan.  I will exercise for an average of a few minutes than I should have, but should be feeling great. It will be at least true about this plan.

Exercise confession to make

Dear Heavenly Father,

I have a confession to make.  I had no real desire to exercise.  However, when I do, exercise is a lot of fun and it gives me something to do.  I helps make me more productive and I know of the benefits of exercise firsthand. I realize that I do have low self-esteem, I feel like I have an extra hurdle.  I am struggling to eat right and exercise.  I need help in preventing myself from being held back.

I wish I could just go out there and exercise so that I can lose the weight and be less anxious.  Another benefit would be to overcome my anxiety and fears.  I have fears and cares that don't seem to make sense with others, not even come to mind, but it seems important with me.  I don't care about the topic at hand, but I spend my days not exercising, but I spend part of my days sleeping it off or dealing with obsessions and compulsions.

Maybe I should just read about it, but that is all I can do and really do and nothing else but list and read.  Even with that, I still don't know what else to do.  I have plenty of time on my hands but I feel bad about the time that I could have had exercising and being active.  I have my wishes but I really need the motivation and strength and desire to exercise so that I can feel better about myself and reap the benefits of exercise other than weight loss.  Thank You for giving me the opportunity to present how I really feel about exercise.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Entry for 11/8/14

I have given up.  I feel so bad about myself.  I have come to realize that I have little to no desire.  I need to know what to do.  I did stretch my back and I did walk some, but that might not be enough.

Same as yesterday

I took a break today.  However, despite my "break", I wasn't ready.  I am not trying to excuse myself but I feel like sometimes I have become lazy and unproductive.

A break on Thursday

I took a break today.  However, despite my "break", I wasn't ready.  I am not trying to excuse myself but I feel like sometimes I have become lazy and unproductive.  I have stretched my back out last night and it worked.  I need to do more stretches like that every night.  Eating healthy does not hurt either along with the exercise.

Results for 11/5/14

Exercise results:
Walking for 60 min

Steps per minute= 51.6

Distance = 1.5  mph

Calories burned = 48 calories

Results for 11/4/14

Exercise results:
Walking for 30 min

Steps per minute= 79.3

Distance = 2.2 mph

Calories burned = 92 calories

This is a planned exercise schedule I made for tomorrow.

Planned exercise schedule that I WILL follow.  It is time for me to take care of me for now on.  It is time I put my pedometer to good use.

Walk                                                  08:00 AM-8:30 AM
Stretches                                            08:30 AM-8:35 AM
Stretch for five minutes                     11:55 AM-12:00 PM
Walk for half an hour                        12:00-12:30 PM
Stretches                                            05:00 PM-05:10 PM
Video Exercises                                 05:10 PM-05:30 PM

Back pain

I was taking a break today.  However I have had back pain which would require some stretching of my muscles.  I was told that that would help strengthen my back or something like that.  I wonder how beneficial it would be in weight loss.

My musing for Saturday

I have forgotten to follow an exercise plan today.  That is the procrastination I was worried about. Sure I did a little exercise yesterday, but I realize a little is not enough.

Today's results

Well, I did do some exercise and even some heavy lifting.  Unfortunately I forgot to bring my pedometer.  Now I will never know how many calories I have burned.  In a 2 hour trip to the grocery store, judging from past pedometer readings, I have burned on average 60 calories.  Well, that is for 2 hours, but the number of calories could be even less.  I just wish I knew.  If I were to go online then hopefully it will be more.  I just felt more energized getting out of the house.

Looking forward to it

I will finally get to exercise tomorrow as I will go shopping.  I realize that I need to take a pedometer with me.  I need to know how many calories I have burned compared to how many I have consumed. I was told by my doctor today to exercise more, but other than that, I am getting better as far as the diabetes goes.  I am just glad to no longer make anymore excuses and procrastinate.

Since Monday

No entry.

I have made enough excuses.

I have issues that have caused me not to go to the gym this morning.  Sadly I did not exercise either. I have struggled with my weight for a long time.  The reason why is because of the struggle with exercise.  I have grown accustomed to being "lazy", which is a bad thing.  Exercise is supposed to not only to make a person physically fit, but mentally and emotionally fit at the same time.  That is all I have to say since I have no excuses.

Sunday break

No entry

Took a nice break

No entry.

Stretch exercises for the back

I have told to do some stretching exercises today.  It would be very helpful for my back.  I have had back problems for a while now and I was supposed to have exercised at least twice or 3 times daily.  I was even asked if I had exercised.  I told them about the stress that I have been under and that I hadn't done much exercise for my back.  I was told that my back condition would improve if I would do some stretches.  So that is exactly what I am going to do.

God, help me

I admit that I have not made progress.  I have been doing the same exercises all over and over again. It has gotten boring.  I have stopped.  How do I improve my exercise regimen or lack thereof?

Walk around the house

I do walk around the house, but that is not of great help since it is a rather slow walk.  However, it is better than nothing.  Nothing is better than a good start.  It is a rather a small miracle.  On the other hand, at least it is a miracle.

Getting out of a cycle

Yesterday was a day that a light bulb moment has finally hit me.  I have no excuse to not exercise. My desire is to change.  I would like to stop doing things the way they are.  I have the answers but how do I go about applying those answers to my situation?  I have been thrown off course, yes, but I wonder if that is an excuse now.  I am great at procrastination and making excuses, but why am I not great at affirming myself?  There isn't much else to write today but I now have a plan and that plan is to allow myself to be overwhelmed to the point where I stay stuck.

No excuses...at all

I will not make excuses.  Sure I did light exercise, despite the fact that I wonder if it were productive or not.  I have been having low back pain, in which has improved my exercise regimen.  I realize today that it needs to change.  I have lost sight of that.  What I need is a happy medium where exercise and application combined are not so hard.

Light exercise

Even though today was a break day, I did some light exercise.  I also plan to make plans for November.  I have nothing but time on my hands.  I am okay now that I have made this accomplishment.  It seems rather small, but a day without procrastination is a good day.

I did pretty well and burned quite a few calories today

Well, I finally did some exercise.  Taking care of dogs would qualify as exercise, right?  How about doing yard work?  Cleaning a house?  Yes, I would think so.  It is too bad that I didn't take the time to determine how many calories I have burned.  However, I went to the healthstatus website and used its calorie burner.  Needless to say, according to them I burned a total of 1500 calories, which is quite a surprise.  I wasn't sure that with my sedentary lifestyle, I would have burned even 5 calories, much less 1500 calories.  For someone with a sedentary lifestyle such as mine, that is like a great start.

Musing about myself and exercise

I wrongly assumed too many things.  I will not write about the lack of exercise or the fact that I procrastinate.  I have no good excuse as to the lack of exercise.  I wish I did have an excuse and maybe I could go with the problem and not procrastinate.  I just want to go back and exercise.  I wish I  had a set routine.  Maybe I would be more cautious as to the benefits of exercise.  I miss exercising. I miss not feeling like I am lazy and unproductive.  I am at an age where a lack of exercise seems not to be an option.  It is time.

Wonderment

I can finally get fit by exercise.  It is true that now I no longer fixated on my weight.  I am clinically obese because of my height as well.  I will take advantage of every day I get to exercise.  I would like to just end the fixation to lose weight and just do so.  But where do I begin?

I made a comback

I finally did some walking this morning and I hope to do some more.  It was a rather slow walk but I realize the benefits of exercise for myself.  I feel so much better mentally but mentally it was a bit painful.  That was because I was procrastinating on exercising for weeks now.  Maybe I should start planning over and over again.

Lack of a regimen

I should be conscious of my exercise regimen.  The problem is, I have no regimen.  Maybe I don't need a regimen and just do it.

Break day 10/12/14

I tried dancing and walking for much of this week.  Maybe I should concentrate on my diet first.

What I did today

Today, I walked around the house.  I also got to cook a lot of food.  I wonder how many calories that burned.  Oh, well.  That is okay since I have finally got off of my butt and did something worthwhile.

Self-esteem and exercise

I realize that my self-esteem issues stem from a lack of exercise.  It is almost 6pm, which is a long time to still exercise and take better care of myself.  Whoever gave me this advice, I am thankful for.

Exercise Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,

Procrastination is not my friend.  It is my enemy.  I have done some exercise pushing a shopping cart. However, I doubt that I burned many calories.  I am apprehensive about exercise in that there is a self-sabotage going on.  I wonder if exercise could help me self-esteem as well as the anxiety and the realization that I am fit.  It would be another miracle.  I feel that I have gotten lazy as of late.  I am so sorry for my sins.  Cleanse me from my secret faults.  I thank You for wisdom, guidance, and a sense of directions as far as my exercise regimen.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

I did some exercise today

I wonder if exercise will improve my self-esteem.  I realize that my exercise regimen is nill, I do walk around the house and housework.  I get tired somewhat but I would like to do more.  What am I waiting for?  Procrastination I realized is a symptom of sabotage and low self-esteem.  The question is how do I overcome both procrastination and self-esteem?  Maybe exercise could help with both, but will it help with self-sabotage?  Only time will tell.

Mindset despite break

While today is a break day, I have decided to just do it, even on Tuesdays.  I find it amazing to remember taking a break on Sundays and Tuesdays.  At least the mindset to exercise is still there.

Sleeping day

I promise I won't go into my needs or procrastination.  It is true that I did not exercise today.  I spent a lot of time sleeping and not feeling well.  Today and tomorrow are just break days.

Break day 10/5/14

Today is a break day.  Maybe it shouldn't be considering the exercise that I do is not the exercise I should be doing.  Sure I'm active, but it isn't the same as moving a muscle.  It is time I do so.

Today and Yesterday

I realize that exercise is good for the mind.  I could not take the anxiety anymore.  I also cannot take the procrastination.  However, I did do some yard work yesterday and walked with the dog today.  I am not sure how many calories I burned, but it is better than not exercising or being active.

Grocery store trip

Today was no break day.  As a matter of fact, I have exercised today.  As a matter of fact also, going to the store is a great way to lose weight.  Unfortunately, I forgot that I needed to bring the pedometer.  I wish I had because pushing a heavy cart and walking to get another cart for 2 hours is quite a workout.  Maybe I should have recorded that more often.

I wish

Yesterday was a break day.  I wish I had taken my pedometer today since I went shopping today.   I hope to bring me a pedometer tomorrow for my shopping trip.  I want to know how many calories I have burned in a 2 hour shopping trip.

40 Years old

I am now 40 years old.  I now know that it is time to start working out.  I have yet to follow an exercise schedule which has been quite embarrassing for me.  Thankfully, I managed to lose weight despite the lack of said exercise.  I heard that the older one one gets, it will be harder to lose weight. If this is true, then I will be a 40 Year old PCOS sufferer who will have an even harder time losing weight.  What was I (not) thinking?

Stick to

I wonder which day should be a break day.  I need to make a brand new plan.  I realize and know to move a muscle.  I am active but I need to exercise.  There is a difference. I need a new plan that I can stick to.

Break day?

Today, on my break day, I have decided that I will exercise.  There are so much I can do.  I am an overweight diabetic and now I have had knee issues and bone issues.  I am not so sure if it is my weight or the aging process.  However, a bit of exercise will do me some good.

The irony of fear

I am sorry but I have realized that I am too anxious to exercise.  It is an irony that I have I know.  I am just wrapped up in thoughts that are causing me anxiety.  I do wonder if any amount of exercise will help me overcome my fears and anxieties.  I need help for I am scared.

Procrastination

It is so true.  Procrastination is not my friend.  It is my enemy.  The problem is, I don't know which exercise to do.  I have been thrown off track for the past month.  I don't know how to get back on the saddle and that is bothersome.  What is a girl to do?

What I have learned.

It is nearing the end of the month.  I realize that exercise has amazing benefits.  It could be very helpful with the obsessive thoughts and the mania I have been having lately.  I have a confession to make.  Not only did I not exercise today, but I was a bit too tired.  All I could think about was not getting healthy, but getting some shuteye.  Procrastination is not my best friend.

Time to do more

I realize that I don't need to start over.  I just need to start.  I have made plans but I have not followed through those plans.  Sure I moved and have been active but at the same time I feel like I have failed. It is near the end of the month and I am tired of complaining.  It is time I start doing and less time complaining.

Break day 9/23/14

Today, since this is Tuesday, I am taking a break today.

I am happier today

I am a happy camper because I lost 2 lbs. this past week.  Sometimes I wonder how I did it.  Having cleaned up a house and taking care of three dogs will do that for you.  It did for me.  Now that is what I call exercise.

Not a happy camper

Today is my break day, since it is Sunday.  However, it seems as if today, I couldn't catch a break.

Dogs that I am taking care of

Walking the dogs and taking them outside is quite a workout.  Trust me, this is definitely the case.  It makes one active mentally and physically.  I love myself more whenever I exercise.  It doesn't make any since yet I believe that exercise has much to improve one's self esteem and confidence.  I am anxious so the dogs have been very helpful in improving my physical condition.

A great way to start

Making a plan is a great start, but that is not what I am going to write about.  What I am writing about is to take better care of myself by moving around.  I haven't done any walking in a while but being active is just as good an exercise as walking.  However, a 15-20 minute walk may actually be a better exercise for me but I digress.

I have been in denial

Lately I have come to realize that I have been in denial.  I am proud of the fact that I lost quite a few pounds in the last 3 weeks or so.  On the other hand, I have to be negative and say that I have not done any exercise today.  It has been said that I am supposed to workout at least 15-30 minutes a day.The truth is, I have barely exercised.  I have made no excuses and I will not do that today or ever.

Not a break

I have taken a break today as I had some work to do today.  However, shopping would be considered light exercise, wouldn't it?  I need help in planning my exercises like I am planning my meals.

Musing from 9/16/14

Seriously, I have no idea what I need to do except for changing my exercise routine.  The problem is, I had one, but I didn't follow it.  I didn't have the drive, or motivation to do so.  I didn't know where to begin anymore.  I may move around or even try to dance, but I tire at being at the beginning of every routine.  I wish I could advance myself but I guess starting from somewhere is better than starting at all.  Every Tuesday I take a break.  I would like to go for more than 15-20 minutes a day walking but I have made excuses.  It is true that my knee may be shaky and I have tumbled a few times.  Maybe it is a sign that physically, I am not 100%.  I have slacked off on my exercise routine.  I don't want to start over but I would like to actually do it.  Just go out there but I have little motivation because I try all the time and fail.  I also tend to lack focus with my diet and exercise routine.  I don't know if it is self-sabotage or something else, but whatever the case may be, this is something that I would like to overcome.

Dancing

Dancing does a girl good.  I am not a good dancer but it helps to try.

Change could come

I am taking a break today.  Sundays and Tuesdays are my break days, though things could change.

My stride to hit

I had a dream last night.  I was about hitting my stride.  Well it is past time to continue to do so.

Hitting my stride

I have been walking today but not in the backyard.  I do need to go out more.  I walk outside for an average of 15 minutes per day, but I need to start walking outside.  I have yet to hit my stride however.

I will make current plans.

I will make plans to exercise today.  I spent more than 20 minutes walking today, but not outside.  I do have to move a muscle even if it is 15 minutes of walking, 30 minutes of dancing, or even 20 minutes of strength training.  It has been a while since I have done some serious working out.  I will hit my stride.

Change of plans

I have not been exercising lately.  Today I will not take a break.  I will be active.  Every Sunday and Tuesday I take a break.  Maybe that needs a break.

Musing about today

I am taking a break.  I realize taking a break is not the wisest thing for me but a break can do me some good.  Mentally it can do me some good but physically it is a no no.  I meant to exercise 15 minutes a week, but I feel like mentally I am unable to do so.  Changing my routine and going ahead has not always been my strong suit.  Now it is time that exercise becomes my strong suit.

How I am feeling today

There isn't too much to say today, but I am disappointed in myself.  I was supposed to walk for 15 minutes at least today.  I am not getting better today.  I am getting worse and I have gained weight because of it.  I am so down on myself and my lack of inactivity.  I wish to be more active and less self-conscious.  I realize that I have no idea where to start over again.  I have no equipment or anything like that so I feel like I have no room to breathe sometimes.  I feel guilty about that.

I want to be fit and in shape

Spiritually I am doing better.  Mentally I am okay as well.  I have to take a break today however.  I take breaks on Sundays and Tuesday.  I am supposed to be fit and in shape by now, but there is no use crying over spilled milk.  I forgive myself and I am beginning to no longer be self-conscious. I have been self-conscious for a long time and it is not a good thing to have.  I would like to stop being self-conscious and love and respect myself.   I don't always like myself but I am looking forward to this journey and to keep the weight off.  That is my problem.  I need to lose weight, but I also need to honor, love, and respect myself and stop being so self-conscious.  I believe that a fat person can love, love, and respect myself.  Not all fat people are so self-conscious.  So God loves me for who I am. What I look like is not God's highest priority I think.  I would like to be God and look at my own heart.  Morals and character are what a person either has or don't have it.  I just don't think that God will love me less regardless of my size.  However, I think that God wants me to not be self-conscious and exhibit a lack of self-control.  Those things are what I need to work on.  I believe that I am not the healthiest person but that is my goal.  As long as I don't engage in eating that is moderate and promoting healthy eating, then I believe that is what matters the most, at least to me.

Great news

Today, my mind is clear.  I feel so much better.  Exercise has helped me forget all of my ills and all of my problems.  I did walk for at least half an hour.  I burned 62 calories today and I hope to burn more.

Exercise is good for the spirit

Exercise is good for the mind and for the spirit.  I had no idea that exercise is good for one's spirit.  I have been spiritually aware for a long time despite the issues that I have.  I have doubts about being born again.  I think that exercise does a lot of good.

I want and need to change.

I want to exercise and I have skipped it.  I want to go back to exercising and eating healthy.  I am disappointed in myself.  What should I do?  I need to walk.  It is really a low impact exercise.  I am in need of exercising my mind but my body as well.  I want to be in shape.  It is sad that I am failing to do.

My feet are killing me

I did some walking yesterday and last night.  My feet are killing me now.  I would like to walk more today.  I already have the schedule planned out.

Tuesday break day

I am on a break today.  I exercise five days a week and so this is the second day of my break.

Another break

My knee hurts.  It was my left knee.  I have gotten lazy and I was back to my own routine of unhealthy eating habits and exercise.  But no more.  I plan to walk at least 15 minutes per day.  I want, need, and desire to lose weight.  I took a break today which I shouldn't have.

Sunday rest

Sunday is a break day.  I am taking a break today.

Not give up

The last thing I wanted to do was to give up.  I don't want to give up.  I don't feel like giving up.  However, it seems that way because I barely exercised.  I barely exercised because I have grown too accustomed to being sedentary.  I need to know how to start back exercising.,

Shopping: an exercise? Maybe

Today I actually exercised.  Sadly it seems, I have only exercised twice this week.  It has been a good week otherwise.  Pushing a cart and walking are both good exercises.  It is I believe good for the arms and for the abs.  I guess it is also a good exercise all over.

Change of plans

I may need to plan a new schedule for at least the next few days.  I have already formulated a schedule for exercising every day next month.  Today, I have been busy making plans and exercising myself mentally instead of exercising my body.  That is not a good thing or depends on how I look at it.  I have been procrastinating lately and that it is not a good thing either.

Today's musing

I did do some walking this afternoon though I wonder how much of a dent it would have made.  I need to exercise more.  I have been told this by my doctor and that is what I am going to do.  I feel like not doing it.  But at the same time I knew that it would be a mistake to go on feelings.

Break day 8/26/14

Today like every Tuesday I take a break from exercising.  But now I wonder if I should do so?

Today's results 8/25/14

Despite feeling a bit sluggish this morning, I did manage to exercise for at least 20 minutes today.  I burned 55 calories and walked on an average of 2 mph.  I did not bring the pedometer today, so I don't know how many steps to record.  Other than that, I think 20 minutes of exercise in that state is pretty good.

Today's break

Today, I take a break.  I wonder if I should now take a break on any Sunday.  Just a thought.

Today's entry 8/23/14

This weekend, I will take a break.  Though all things are subject to change.  I was not feeling well today.  I need to formulate a better plan than I have.  A lot of changes had to be made this past month and it will be over soon.

Today's results 8/22/14

Pedometer
Steps: 3508
Time: 30 minutes
Aerobic Steps: 1800
Distance: 1.6 miles
Calories burned: 162
Steps/min: 94.7

Sparkpeople
Steps: 3508/2500
Time: 10 minutes
Distance: 2 mph
Calories burned: 54

Time: 10 minutes
Distance: 2.3 mph
Calories burned: 62

Time: 5 minutes
Distance: 2.5 mph
Calories burned: 32

Time: 5 minutes
Distance: 3.0 mph
Calories burned: 36

Strength training: 18 calories burned

Treadmill
Distance range: 2 mph-3 mph
Time: 30 minutes
Calories burned : 176

Motivation time

I walked a little bit and did some movement.  Other than that I took a break rather because apparently I didn't so much this morning.  It is time I start a routine before I get my head out of the game and lose focus.

Today's results....

I have to make changes to my plans, but I did walk today.  This is a day free of appointments which is good. I believe that I walked a bit too slow today, however.  I didn't burn that many calories either.  However, I made plans to not overeat today but to follow that plan.

A slight change of plans is possible

I will walk today for at least 15 minutes.  That is a plan that I intend to follow.  I needed to catch up on my exercise routine.  I know that today is a rest day since it is Tuesday, but there is no rule that says that I can't do this and I can't do that.  My health is a high priority and I am taking it seriously.  As I am typing this, I have a light bulb moment about editing my exercise routine.  I should have done that earlier, but it is really better late than never.  It is also better to be safe than sorry.

Making a choice to exercise

I have made a conscious decision to exercise.  I can also make a conscious decision not to exercise.  That is my choice.  What I need to do is to exercise for at least 15 minutes a day.  I need for the exercise to at least make a dent.  I walk around, but I do wonder if that counts as exercise.  I doubt it since there is no real impact made.  So, I guess it means I took a break today.  On the other hand, there are 24 hours in a a day.

Break day 8/17/14

I may exercise today, but today, I have decided to take a break.

Saturday's results 8/16/14

I did pretty well today.  This is considering the much needed breaks and the pressure on my left knee.  I walked 2.4 mph for 15 minutes according to my pedometer.  I burned 62 calories for 0.6 mph.  That isn't too bad, but I know that I could do better.

Today's results

I walked for 15 minutes 2 mph.  I burned over 130 calories today according to sparkpeople.  I also walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes at 2.5 mph for over 80 calories according to my pedometer.  I also walked for 5 minutes at 3mph at nearly 40 calories for a total of  nearly 250 calories.  I am proud of myself and I hope to do better next time I use the treadmill.

Today's result 8/14/14

I walked at 2.4 miles per hour today.  I also burned 46 calories, which is too slow walking but at least I walked.  I also walked nearly 1400 steps with over 1200 aerobic steps.  I believe that though I did walk a bit too slow that it is more or less a good start.

Break but walked

I did some walking but not much.  During the appointment days I usually take a break.  So that is not what I did today.  Tomorrow I will walk in the backyard for at least 15 minutes.  My legs gave way because of the overwork.  Now I will be back in the saddle tomorrow now that I am better.

Walk and break

I plan to walk for the rest of the week.  I will take a break today.

What I need to do

I am going to exercise today for a few minutes.  What exercise I am going to do, I don't know.  I might just walk for a few minutes.  All I need to know is to read up on some exercises for those with my condition.  I may have arthritis or some other kind of inflammation.  This would explain the trouble with going up and down the steps.  It has been difficult for me to do so.

Break day

Today I am on a break.

Airing my frustration

I plan to take a much needed break.  However I did some walking today or at least walking around. I don't want to just stop exercising.  However, I want the exercise to produce some benefits.

Calories burned

I did exercise today.  However, it wasn't but so much.  I only exercised for 10 minutes at 2mph.  My leg was about to give way and I didn't want to fall again.  I took it slowly today.  However I burned 79 calories according the treadmill.  However according to Sparkpeople, it was slightly more than 80 calories.

Hopes and plans

I have gotten lazy today as I am having to go to my appointment tomorrow.  I plan to exercise after I get some labwork done.  I hope the labwork doesn't take a while because I wish to do some much needed exercising.  I don't wish to become lazy.

What is happening as I am typing this?

I am supposed to exercise today but right now I am taking a break.  I went to my appointment and as it is I may have a hip issue and that is why I have been tumbling lately.  The last time I took a tumble was Monday at the Wellness Center.  I may do some more walking today however.  I am doing okay however.  I just hope all will be well.

Today's break

I had taken a break today from exercise.  I usually take a break during the time I have an appointment or during the weekend.  I cannot afford more breaks than usual.  I want to lose 124 pounds and keep off those 124 pounds.

Good and bad news today

My legs were not okay, at least my right leg wasn't 100 %.  I had difficulty climbing on the elliptical today. However, I used more equipment that worked my abs and my shoulders.  So that is a good thing.  I also walked on the treadmill for half an hour at 2.0 mph, yet I have worked for up to 2.5 mph.  I burned 160 calories and walked a distance of over a mile.  I feel so much better since I have rested.

At rest today

Today I am at rest.  Tomorrow, I will exercise on the treadmill for 15-30 minutes.  Hopefully my legs will be okay.

Shopping as a "workout"

I am doing better yet I am still leery of climbing the steps.  After a couple of tumbles this past week, I am still careful.  I did however, some exercise.  Pushing a heavy grocery cart for nearly two hours is good for the shoulders, back, and abs.  I even managed to burn a few calories in the process.  I hope the calories did not go to waste with all that I consumed today.  Tomorrow, I will rest.

Pain and embarrassment, but a minor gain

Today was the first day this month.  I did some serious exercising...for me at least.  I worked 15 minutes on the treadmill at 2.5 mph.  I also worked 3 more minutes on the treadmill at 1.0% grade at 3.0 mph, or at least I tried.  I also tried to work 2 minutes on the treadmill.  It was embarrassing to say the least.  I didn't feel too embarrassing but looking back, I wonder how do I not know how to use a stationary bike?  Needless to say, I have not used a stationary bike in years, but I got it to work somehow, lol.  I also burned some calories in the long run.

In pain

Sadly I did not get to exercise today.  I was in pain and whatever exercise I did wasn't enough to make a dent.  My walking was slow and I spent more time napping than I did working out.  In short, I barely worked out today.  I am still in some pain right now and I was tumbling again this morning.  I cannot pinpoint exactly what is going on, but I hope that it is so serious that it would require surgery.

Today's results

I was supposed to walk for 10+ minutes today.  It does help that I walked pretty fast today.  It was at over 2.8 mph for 13 minutes.  I burned 60 calories and I am proud of myself.  However, I am supposed to walk at least 15 minutes or more.  I was supposed to start off slow then work my way up.  I hope to do so and increase my exercise regimen.

Rest day

Today I rested.  I tend to rest every Sunday and Tuesday.  I realize that I don't exercise enough.  I want to lose weight and not just need to lose weight.  I promise myself that I will exercise so that I will lose the weight.  But weight loss is not just the only benefit.  On the other hand, there is a benefit to weight loss.  I plan to exercise tomorrow with a 15+ minute walk.  I wish myself luck.

My musings during my break

I have decided to do a redo of my exercise regimen for next month.  I am not losing weight most of the time but I have finally broken through that hump.  Yet I have to admit that I am doing a few things wrong.  I am just so tired of being unhealthy.  I do need to exercise more and more often.  I have started off slow, but it is time to work from there.  I need help in keeping in mind that exercise has many benefits and so far, I have benefited from exercise.  I hope to lose weight by consuming a healthy diet, exercise, and taking my medication.

This weekend

I meant to take a walk this morning but today my thighs are hurting.  Should I take a break from walking until it gets better or should I have walked through the pain?  That is what I ask myself.  I plan to walk away the pounds.  It is a low impact routine that has some benefits particularly for the heart.  It is also a simple program.  Last night, however, I tried Zumba once again and needless to say, I recommend it, but it is not easy.  I sadly did not last five minutes on the program and it was a beginning program.  But at least I tried.

Not a great day today

I feel like I have failed.  I didn't exercise today because I put if off. for other things.  What those other things were I don't remember.  My plan is the follow my exercise plan so that I can lose weight.  I wish to exercise five days a week for at least 10 minutes a day.  However, there is some time left in the day so I will do some exercise then.  Zumba is my exercise of choice.  I spent a lot of time wanting and trying to eat healthy today. Hopefully, I have not failed in that goal.

Yard work and walking

I didn't burn as many calories as I thought.  Maybe I wrongly interpreted the results.  I did some yard work and I also walked, but not the 10 minutes I planned.  I feel pretty good today due to the exercise however.  I believe that exercise has benefited me in terms of a healthy mind as well as body.

Rest from exercise today

Today, I am at rest.  Tomorrow I will walk or do some other exercise.  However that is a post for tomorrow.  I went to my appointment and I wish losing weight wasn't so hard, even with diet and exercise. Maybe my approach to losing weight is all wrong.  Maybe it is just my thinking.  I have been feeling discouraged because I have gained weight...again.  I plan to lose 100 lbs and I thought that with exercise added losing weight would be so easy.  It isn't.  Maybe my "diet" has been wrong all along.  All I know is that I need some encouragement.

Not the best day however...

I may have to exercise some more today since I have walked only 5 minutes today.  It was muggy outside this morning and I decided to go back in the house.  I did at least burn 22 calories and walked over 500 steps which is pretty good for five minutes.  I realized that I needed to eat better foods and exercise more.  I wish I knew what took me so long.

Break for today

Today I am taking a break.  It is time that I take my health more seriously.  It is time that I take exercise more seriously.  I do exercise but I am doing better with exercise but I have not lost any weight.  This is quite frustrating.

Before eleven

I didn't get to walk outside today.  I walked inside the house though I dare say that I walked 2.7 mph in 20 minutes.  I walked 0.9 miles today and I am proud of myself.  I guessed I could have walked elsewhere but it was too wet outside.  I also guess that I could have done another exercise but there is however the rest of the day to decide that.

Changes I could make

I realize that I should stretch before I exercise.  I tend to stretch after I exercise.  I would like to exercise more but not exercise out a bad diet.  This is what I have been doing.  It is great to exercise but I am not losing any weight.  I am trying but I am not doing a great job.  I would like to not only look better and feel better due to exercise, but eat better as well.  I did lunges, squats, and also walked for 13 minutes.  It was a pretty decent workout, but there is no such thing as working out a bad diet.  That is what I am guilty of.

Concerns and triumphs for today

I had a rather fast walk this morning.  I exercised early this morning so the weather was right for walking.  I meant to do some yardwork.  I feel like that while exercise has done me some good, exercise in general is not really helping me in losing weight.  Despite my record today, I am not losing weight and that has me worried.  I don't wish to give up exercising.  As a matter of fact, I walked 2.75 miles per hour for nearly 20 minutes.

Day at rest

I had some labwork done today.  That was my appointment.  I did not keep busy most of the day as I was tired.  However at first I could not sleep.  I wish I could have been knocked out sooner.  Anyways, I rested today from exercise.  I will walk and do yardwork tomorrow.  I am reminded that even though I didn't consume as many calories today the food was not the healthiest.  I did not exercise today however which would not take me a long way.

Zumba workout

How did the Zumba class go?  I tried for 10 minutes and needless to say, I have two left feet.  At times, I had difficulty keeping up.  However, I found myself catching up with the other students that were in the video.  If had had went to the gym with these ladies, I would have felt lost.  I never really felt this self-conscious even while exercising in the comfort of my own home.  I have never been the overweight person who feels out of place at a gym because of my size, so why would I feel so self-conscious at a place where there is privacy and no gym?  Well, as I mentioned earlier, I pretty much answered my own question.  It was fun for a while but I guess only time will tell.

Rest day

I have not exercised today.  I rest mainly on Sunday and Tuesdays.  I exercise 5 times a week and now I am sore.  It is working and so far, I feel great.  Because I have rested, there really isn't much for me to say. However, I plan to dance for a few minutes with Zumba.  I have tried Zumba before and it is quite fun.  I look forward to trying it.

Walking and results from today

Well, I tried Insanity and all that I can say is this: it is hard.  I could not keep up nor did I last 10 minutes. Maybe I should try Insanity later.  I went walking today.  I walked for over 1400 steps, 2.4 mph, and burned 67 calories in just 15 minutes.  Now if only I could actually lose weight.  I gained four pounds despite exercise.  Losing weight is not that easy, but judging from the results from today, the exercise is well worth it.

Insanity

I plan to do the Insanity workout for at least 10 minutes today.  Insanity is a rather difficult workout that I have tried before.  It is well worth it.  I have been planning it for a couple of days now like I have been planning my exercises for a month.  So far, I have been following the plan yet I have to lose weight.  I have not lost much weight.  In fact, when I weighed myself today, I finally realized that I need to do something about my eating habits.  I guess when things don't go well, I become a perfectionist.  Perfectionism has not worked well so far.  All I can do is to forgive myself and not feel guilty about "blowing it".  Nowadays all I care about what has happened is that I do not give up on my food and exercise goals.

I walked, lunged, and did squats today

I walked over 2.7 miles per hour today for 11 minutes.  I was supposed to walk for 10-30 minutes which I did.  I walked for nearly 1000 steps.  I feel great about this accomplishments.  My legs feel like jelly after the strength training, lunges, and also the squats.  I feel like I am in better shape.  Exercise is something that I plan to continue to do and I hope I never quit.  I want to lose weight and stay in shape after I lose.  I will do a few stretches, which is I admit I should have done beforehand, but I won't skip the stretching at all.  I actually plan to walk tomorrow despite the fact that I rest on Sundays.

My plan for today

Sadly, I did not get to follow the plan today.  However, I will go exercise in the house from an online video. I plan to exercise for 15 minutes today.  I exercised yesterday morning.  I hope to exercise tonight or later this afternoon.  It will be a low impact exercise from Leslie Sansone.  I exercised from her once but I have to learn to catch up with her.  I believe that I will lose the weight through diet and exercise.  The last thing I want to do is to gain weight, but to lose weight and keep it off.

Pedometer used today

Yes!  I have received and used my pedometer today.  Despite the fact that I walked only 10 minutes today, I managed to burn some calories.  I walked 2.3-2.4 mph today with 62 calories burned give or take a few.  I have been using Sparkpeople and so far, I have lost a few pounds.  Now if only I could plan my meals the way I plan my exercise.  I know now why it is so much easier to plan my exercise than to plan meals. Anyways, I feel very good today so far and I hope to feel better later in the day.

Need help with plans but at least I exercise

Well, I formulated a plan yesterday and I have to say that I actually follow the exercise plans, but later in the day, my appetite is so much less than it was in the afternoon that I don't get to eat the snacks that I have put in the snack plan.  I believe that I did okay today even though I didn't burn off many calories.  I hope to put the pedometer than was finally sent to me to good use.  So far, I worked off just a few minutes today.  I hope to put even more work into it tomorrow and the rest of the week and the week after that.

Formulating a plan

I didn't burn any calories today.  I am today resting from exercise.  I plan to exercise again from tomorrow through Saturday.  I exercise for five days a week.  Maybe or not I should set up a time to exercise as well as the exercises themselves.  That way, I can and will actually hold myself accountable.  It is time to weigh the risks, the pros and cons of exercise and a failure to exercise.  A failure to plan is a plan to failure.

I burned almost 400 calories this morning

I took time to do some yard work for a good while.  I raked the ditch, and other things like cleaning up the yard of waste and burning trash.  I also walked for a few minutes from one stop sign to another.  I should be tired and worn out, but I am not.  I feel pretty good.  I feel energized and ready to continue the day.

Sunday is my break day, but so is Tuesday

Despite my break today, I did in fact do some minor exercise.  Now that I realize that I ate too much and consumed more calories than I should have for a diabetic, I wish I had done some more cardio or at least strength training.  The minor exercise I did was 30 minutes of walking at 1.5 mph, which isn't much but at least it is better than nothing.  Maybe it is no longer time to start off slow come next week.

Good day today

Exercise did me some good today.  I did stretches, lunges, and squats.  I also walked for a few minutes. I followed my plan today and I feel great.  I feel so much better about myself and about my thoughts.  I wish that I could feel better everyday.  Alas, I am glad I did exercise.

Do me no good

I meant to actually exercise today.  I ate so much today I doubt that exercise would have done me some good.  Well, there is always tomorrow.  I no longer wish to skip a day of exercise again.  This is true especially after the last two days I had.

For the past two days

Well for the past two days, I have broken a sweat.  It actually feels good to want to exercise and then have a little soreness.  I didn't realize that "no pain, no gain" could apply to me.  I am starting off slowly, yes, but I feel like I can accomplish anything.  Even when I wake up in the morning I want to exercise.  I enjoy exercise though it can be hard.  I don't ever want to feel like I have to or want to give up.  I walked and did yard work for over 20 minutes today.  I guess I will have to do more yard work as well as walking.  It felt really good to "move a muscle".

Rest for me today

Today, I rested.  However I feel great from yesterday's workout.  Tomorrow I will workout for at least 10 minutes.  Now it means that it could be more than 10 minutes.  Sparkpeople has been of great benefit to me. I hope to burn at least 200 calories tomorrow and I would like to buy a pedometer to go along with me, the one who will be walking tomorrow.

Treadmill exercise

I exercised early this morning.  I am doing well so far, yet I have to consume less than the amount of processed foods I consume.  I would like to lose five pounds for now, but I will not give up.  I will keep on exercising.  I burned over 100 calories today.  I was on the treadmill for at least half an hour this morning.  I started walking at 2 mph and then moved up to 2.5 and tried to exercise at 3 mph, which was more than a walk.  It was a jog. Trying to walk faster than 2.5 mph was a bit difficult for me, so I slowed down to 2.5 mph.  I also walked an extra five minutes at a speed of 2.5 mph.  So, that is my regimen today.

Catching up today

I am writing this morning because I did some breathing and physical exercise, though not as much.  Today was a catch-up of yesterday's exercise.  I feel like I am doing well today.  I did make meal plans and even did some crunches this morning.  It is still early in the day so I may do some more exercise even though today is my rest day.

What I did this morning

I didn't get to walk today because I thought the weather was going to be bad.  Alas, it was not.  I did do some lunges and squats which were good.  I also stretched early this morning which was helpful.  I realize that exercise strangely is helping me out with confronting my fears, which would be the inevitable. Tomorrow, I rest.

The benefits of exercise...

I believe that exercise is beneficial.  It is true.  It is beneficial.  I walked for 2 miles per hour for just 5 minutes today, which doesn't make a dent.  But at least I burned 27 calories, which is a good start.  I still have my fears than I did in the past, but they are still there.  I feel a lot better than I did in the past.  My thoughts seem to be gone or have at least lessened.  For that, I am thankful.

Confronting my exercise fear

I am having a big fear that I won't continue to exercise.  I want to continue to exercise.  All I know what to do with that fear is to confront the fear.  The ways to confront the fear is to pray since fear is a spiritual matter.  I have made so many mistakes by quitting and getting lazy.  I don't have the confidence to just go out there and do it for a long period of time.  This time, there are no excuses.  I am a diabetic and I fear complications even more so than I lack confidence.  I don't desire to stay overweight and unhealthy.  I want to be fit and healthy, which isn't thin for me.  I want to exercise more and more and more each day.  Today for instance, I walked for over 10 minutes, which I wanted to do for a total of 64 calories burned.  However, I need to walk faster than 2 miles per hour.  I felt good exercising though.  I was told I need to exercise more and after today, that is what I plan to do.

My progress today

I weighed myself early this morning and I feel like I have either done a good job or I have done a poor job. I think that I have done a good job, especially since I weighed myself.  I exercised for 2.3 mph, 1.3 miles, and I burned 220 calories for over 30 minutes.  I feel like a million bucks, for a lack of a better word or two.  I am energized and ready to go.  I am proud of myself.

I did rest today...

I realize that I had gained weight because I have started exercising.  I refuse to be frustrated.  I will not stop exercising.  I am glad that I have been consistent in applying an exercise routine and that I am proud of.  I don't wish to stop at all.  I would like to continue but I don't trust myself.  I like to walk.  I would like to do what I enjoy.

Progress made so far

I am still a bit sore but I my muscles are more still than sore.  I put a heating pad on my sore muscles and needless to say, I feel better.  I did some stretching this morning and I feel so much better.  I feel even better after nearly 20 minutes of walking.  The exercise was low-impact, but at least it was a nice burn.  I have set up a weekly exercise plan that I hope to continue following:

Sunday- rest with squats and lunges
Monday-walk for at least 15-20 minutes
Tuesday-rest
Wednesday-treadmill for at least 30 minutes
Thursday-walk for 10-20 minutes
Friday- yard work plus a 10-15 minute walk
Saturday- walk for at least 15-20 minutes

Resting myself today

I am still a bit sore, but I am doing what I can to rest.  It is frustrating as I tried to walk on sore muscles. Anything is better than sitting there doing nothing.  Today I am resting my muscles, so I haven't made any plans to exercise today.

I am still a bit sore, but..

I tried to do some walking today but it has hurt to walk.  I have been sore for the past two days and needless to say that exercising on sore legs does not help.  But it is better than not exercising at all, not to mention, being lazy does not help me.  I did at least do a few lunges, leg lifts, and squats to work my hips and backside.  I weighed myself and I gained weight.  I guess my body has to get used to the exercise since I am only working towards being in-shape.  Meanwhile, everyday I exercise is one step closer to being more in shape daily and a more toned, fit body.

I did some digging today

I did some digging for 20 minutes this morning.  However, I tried to walk also this morning, but I was too sore so I couldn't continue.  It was motivation to move a muscle and hop to it even more so to speak.  I feel pretty good now, yet I still have no idea that there are more plans that I need to make.  I wish that I could say I know what I am doing, but I don't.  I am still making plans about exercising as far as the length of time to exercise and the number of days to exercise.  I need to realize that the most important thing is to weigh the risks as compared to weighing out the benefits.  So far, so good.

I did some walking for 15 minutes today...yay

I actually followed an exercise plan by actually doing some exercise today.  I did some walking for around 15 minutes and burned nearly 200 calories.  Though my form was bad, I am happy to have done exercise. Now if only I have a plan, at least a set plan to exercise.  How often should I exercise?  What time should I start to exercise?  How many times should I exercise per day and for how long?  Those are things that I need to consider.  Back to the subject of the exercise I actually did, I feel great today, if even a little sore.

Treadmill for over half an hour

I did it!  I am finally motivated to do more exercise.  I had a rough night so I went to exercise.  I didn't realize how beneficial exercise is to a person with OCD, such as myself.  I knew but not like this.  I love to walk and I will continue to walk again.  So I walked on the treadmill for more than half an hour and I feel much lighter even though I didn't do a whole lot of vigorous exercise today.  I plan to walk, just "move a muscle" tomorrow too.

Plans in the exercise and food department

I have made plans to not actually do the work and not try to do the work.  For the past week, I have been making plans to exercise and to eat healthy.  Sadly I have been doing less exercise and have tried to eat healthy.  That means that I would like to eat healthy but I am feeling like a failure at times when I eat the fried foods or the fattening pasta dish.   I don't always eat in moderation and I rarely exercise vigorously.  Sure, I lost weight so I am doing something right.  But I have a long way to go in order to prove to myself that I have made some strides in both departments.

Nothing but good news

I plan to consume less than 2000 calories today.  Actually I wrote this down because I lost four pounds total since I started.  I am very pleased with myself.  I also did some walking today, which was quite beneficial.  It was a brief, but beneficial workout.  I need to do this more often.

Plan and weight

My plan is to walk for 30 minutes today.  My energy level is pretty high and I am doing very well today.  I weighed myself yesterday and I am glad to have lost weight.  I hope to weigh myself, officially, tomorrow and lose more weight.  Wish me luck.

What happened today

I wonder if going outside and getting some fresh air while walking around with several animals count as exercise.  If it does then I am doing well today.  However, if it is not, then yard work is the only exercise I did today.  It took 20 minutes to do the yard work that I did today.  I also weighed myself today.  I lost a few pounds since the last time I weighed myself.  I feel great about that.

Planning?

It is time to walk tomorrow.  I have to do yardwork anyways.  I hope that I will not procrastinate and I will actually "hop to it".  Should I even plan my exercise regimen despite the fact that it is rarely even followed.  I tend to do things on the fly so I wonder what the benefits of planning are.

Starting next week

I have finally made plans to exercise.  I will go to the local "gym" once a week and exercise for half an hour. I have already exercised there before.  My weight will definitely be much smaller.  I have given up too much and I just gave up the last time.  I have become my own worst enemy when it comes to exercise and even diet.  I don't wish for that to happen again.

Hop to it

I realize that I should just get up and go.  I need to just hop to it and just exercise, whether a nice walk in the yard, a walk in the neighborhood, stretching, or exercising from a video.  I just hope that I can just do it. My mindset is what is wrong with me.  Why do I not know about just applying what I have learned as far as exercise?  Well, one reason is that I am stressed.  It has been so urgent for me to lose weight that I became anxious to the point where I gained most of my weight back.  Ironically, with little exercise, I lost weight.  I did walk and exercise from videos.  But if I wish for exercise to be effective, then my diet will have to be effective as well.

Two healthy things 1

There are two things that I believe are supposed to help me.  I will exercise for 10 minutes today and I will use breathing techniques that I have learned today.  Should I have an exercise strategy according to the fact that I am diabetic or the fact that I have PCOS?  Maybe that has been my problem all along.  I need to exercise not only my body, but also my mind.

No longer procrastinating, but walking

There isn't a lot I can say but just for me to do it.  I plan to walk this afternoon and I hope to feel better.  I am here to say that I have gotten tired of procrastination.  I will have to just get up and do all that I wish to do, which is exercise and lose weight.  I am a diabetic and exercise is quite important, but I have to internalize the benefits for myself.  That is the lesson that I have learned for today.

My weight concerns

I wish to work through the pain.  Right now I am in such pain that I have no choice but to exercise.  I need to lose weight but for me.  Exercise would be beneficial to me at this point.  I have not lost weight so it is stable.

Sadly all I did was not exercise

Sadly all I did was sleep.  I am going to learn how to follow an exercise plan.  Why did I just figure that out, I do not know.  Every time I seem to have a pain or a numbing feeling I feel like I am getting worse.  I am not healthy.  Therefore, I need to do my job.  I don't wish to try anymore.  I wish to just do it.  But where do I begin?

My Inspiration

I have become inspired today to just move around, even if I am in pain.  I would like to focus less on the amount of time I exercise than I do.  Focusing on how long I have to exercise is too much of a hassle.  I need help on that area.  I like to walk.  Maybe that is the only exercise I should do for the time being at least right now.

Learn about myself

I am learning more and more about myself.  I have to say is that I have gotten lazy and I procrastinated too often.  I believe that there is a link between affirming oneself and going the distance so to speak.  To me going the distance means to get out of my comfort zone and into a long-standing routine where I can not only see but feel positive results from the healthy eating and exercise.  Right now, walking is a good exercise for me to do as well as strength training.

No more excuses, again

It is almost 6:00 PM and I have yet to exercise.  I was supposed to walk today but I spent much of my asleep.  I took a very long nap and now I have to adjust my schedule.  I cannot procrastinate anymore.  I need to exercise more so that I can lose weight and keep it off.

A probable schedule

I am not proud to admit that even after yesterday, I have done no exercise.  However I wonder if waiting is considered a physical activity.  No, of course not, but I wish it were.  I have gotten to a point where I will try every exercise in the world.  If only I were to put my mind into it.  For instance, I may have to stop procrastinating and put out that specific schedule that I need to put out.

Monday
7-9 AM Cleaning up the house
12-2 PM Walking and dancing, with breaks of course
6-6:30 PM Go online and do some ab exercises for several minutes with breaks in between

That would be a good exercise schedule.  This above partial schedule is just an example, so I have to look realistically for every day.  How long do I nap?  How long could I exercise per day?  Could I go walking for 30 minutes in the morning?  Should I wait in the evening to exercise?  Why is exercise a chore for me?  I just want to actually exercise and have fun with it, but is that overrated.  I am not exercising to have fun, I am exercising for my health.  Procrastination has been my enemy.

A little bit of this and a little bit of that.

Today I did a few exercises from my physical therapy session.  It was from my past, physical therapy session.  I believe that I am here to do more for myself as far as physical activity.  But I guess pushing a heavy cart, and a stretch and a dance here and there would count as exercise.  Right now, as I am typing this, I am quite tired to even think of what to say next.  Maybe I should "exercise" my eyes for a bit and rest my mind a little.  My mind is active that way.

Today I actually was active

I am no performer but I "tried to dance" today.  I did however walk pretty fast, but I hope to walk even faster tomorrow.  The only exercises that I have been able to do are walking, pushing carts, and yard work.  It hasn't been hard, but I look forward to weighing myself tomorrow.  I want to be able to further exercise without worrying about how much time I have left to exercise.  I wish that exercise wasn't such a chore.

Weekly plan

I can plan for the week.  For this week, I plan to walk for a specified amount of time per day, five days per week.  I have not been feeling 100% today yet I have some energy now.  That is a good thing.  I have put off formulating an exercise plan but I plan to walk for 10 minutes at least, 5 days per week every morning.  Saturday, I plan to clean up which will take a while and take off a few calories.

No pain, no gain

So, no pain go gain.  I did some walking with pushing a heavy cart while shopping for groceries today for at least 30-45 minutes.  Yep, that is good exercise.  I felt pretty good about myself today.  I would like to continue to exercise today, even if it is at a slow pace.  I guess, no pain, no gain.

Where do I begin?

I am not sure what to do.  I know to diet and exercise, but where should I begin?  Should I start to strength train or just walk?  I have equipment, but I feel like I am wasting money on the equipment.  I am just afraid that I will never use that equipment.  In short, I am afraid to fail.  I want to start exercising right now but because of my fear, I am just procrastinating.  I tend to do some movement early in the morning or later at night, but should I count slow walking as exercise?  I would like to be able to move for just ten minutes without being able to worry about how much time I have left to exercise.  Where do I begin?

State of slight urgency

I went to the doctor and stepped on the scale.  I gained about 2 pounds.  I have been praying for the motivation, wisdom, and strength to lose weight.  I have barely lost the weight.  I have been mostly gaining.  I know that I need help.  Here is my plan.  I will walk for 10-20 minutes tonight, which may be too late.  I will also walk for about half an hour tomorrow.  I want, need, and desire to be healthy, but I have to wonder. What is my real goal?  Why do I really want to lose weight and be fit?  Why is it so important to me?

No more excuses

I should and desire to exercise for 10 minutes a day for now.  I wish to start off slowly.  I know that I am out of shape and I am very concerned about my health.  It is hard to actually get out and exercise because I am self-conscious, so how is it I am so self-conscious?  Because I wish to lose 100 pounds, I feel guilty about being so guilty about the lack of exercise that I have done.  I have begun to love and to hate exercise at the same time.  No matter how motivated, it is as if I cannot find time to actually exercise.  I don't wish to make excuses, which is seemingly what I am doing.  I am scared for my health and my overall well-being yet I have this mindset.  How do I change my mindset?  I sometimes feel like quitting, which is what I don't want to do.

Now is the time

It is now time I went to the gym.  I wanted to walk in the back yard today.  I wished that I could walk and not make excuses.

Planning to walk

Tomorrow, I plan to walk for at least 30 minutes.  I would like to be able to lose weight and keep it off and walking seems to be the best exercise.  I have gained a lot of weight over the years and the extra weight has taken a toll on my health.  It is time for me to stop being inspired to exercise and just actually do it.  I cannot and don't expect anyone else to do the exercising for me.  I may benefit them but it won't be of any help to not just me, but my overall health.  What really has procrastination and unproductive, inconsistent exercise have done for me?  Nothing.

How exercise has been of benefit to me

Yesterday was my last day of physical therapy.  I am so relieved that I no longer have to go there but I dare say it wasn't all bad.  It made me self-conscious, but in a good way.  I now know why I need to exercise, but for me.  Physical therapy has been an inspiration to me and today, I actually performed some of the exercises.  I wish I had exercised a bit longer today but I felt great just exercising and moving around. Today I can finally say that I did some exercise and not only followed a schedule, but I actually exercised and didn't view it as a chore.  I would like to exercise much more as I have polycystic ovarian syndrome and I need to take better care of myself..  I have lost a small amount of weight and I feel so much freer.  Exercise has already produced benefits in myself that I didn't think about before.  It made me less self-conscious and it just made me feel more useful or rather productive.  Health benefits aside, there are the emotional benefits to exercise.  I am bipolar and I have obsessive thoughts to deal with yet this week they were not a burden because they were not as hard to deal with as I have been in the past, but at least exercise has "calmed my mind" down.  I have become more centered and I did not procrastinate today, which has made me feel better.

My doubts about scheduling an exercise regime

I will plan to be more specific whenever I make a schedule.  I also plan to actually follow a schedule.  I have to admit that a schedule is more than a plan but we should all should live by a schedule.  Sometimes I tend to live a day rather mindlessly.  I may blog one minute on one day and on another day, not blog at all.  I have been too lazy to blog lately and for that, I owe an apology.  I apologize for not holding myself as credible as I should have.  I have difficulty following instructions, schedules, and anything that provides structure.  I wish it were a case of live and let live.  However, maybe I should be more mindful of the risks of not only following a schedule and not following it, but also being less specific with the type of exercise I am doing.  I have been given so much at my disposal that it is time to do so.  I do exercise but I still have my feelings on it.  I have my doubts about diet as well.

Exercise schedules for May 20, 2014 and May 21, 2014

May 20, 2014
4:30 AM Wake up and get ready for the day
5:00-5:20 AM Housework
5:20-5:30 AM Test Blood Sugar and record reading
5:30-6:00 AM Breakfast and Medication
6:00 AM Test blood sugar and record reading
6:00 AM Get ready for appointment
8:00 AM Get ready for appointment
8:00 AM Appointment
9:00-11:00 AM
11:00 AM Lunch
12:00 AM Nap
1:30 PM Prayer and Bible reading
2:00 PM Snack
2:15-5:00 PM Watch TV or listen to radio
3:00 Exercise-Walking
3:30 Watch TV or listen to the radio
4:00 Prayer and Bible reading
5:00-6:30 PM Dinner
6:30 PM Browsing and blogs
6:45-8:00 Watch TV
8:00-8:15 Snack
8:15 PM Prayer and meditation
8:30-8:45 PM Affirmations
8:45-9:00 PM Exercise -Walk
9:00-11:30 PM Watch TV or a movie
11:30-11:45 Get ready to go to bed
11:45 PM Questioning events of the day concerning what matters that is positive
11:50 PM-12:00 AM Sleep

May 21, 2014

4:30 AM Wake up and get ready for the day

5:00-5:20 AM Housework 

5:20-5:30 AM Test Blood Sugar and record reading

5:30-6:00 AM Breakfast and Medication

6:00 AM Test blood sugar and record reading

6:00 AM Browse the internet

8:00 AM Get ready for appointment

10:00 AM Appointment

11:00 AM Lunch

12:00 AM Nap

2:30 PM Prayer 

2:00 PM Snack

2:15-5:00 PM Watch TV or listen to radio

3:00 Exercise-Walking

3:30 Pray, Watch TV or listen to the radio

4:00 Prayer and Bible reading

5:00-6:30 PM Dinner

6:30 PM Browsing and blogs

6:45-8:00 Watch TV

8:00-8:15 Snack

8:15 PM Prayer and meditation

8:30-8:45 PM Affirmations

8:45-9:00 PM Exercise -Walk

9:00-11:30 PM Watch TV or a movie

11:30-11:45 Get ready to go to bed

11:45 PM Questioning events of the day concerning what matters that is positive

11:50 PM-12:00 AM Sleep

Exercise Schedule 5/19/14

May 19, 2014
4:30 AM Wake up and get ready for the day
5:00-5:20 AM Housework
5:20-5:30 AM Test Blood Sugar and record reading
5:30-6:00 AM Breakfast and Medication
6:00 AM Test blood sugar and record reading
6:00 AM Exercise
7:00-7:30 AM Browse online
7:30 AM Get ready for appointment
8:00 AM Exercise-walking
8:30 AM Listen to music
8:45-9:00 AM Snack
9:00-11:00 AM Appointment
11:30 AM Lunch
12:00 PM Nap
1:30 PM Prayer and Bible reading
2:00 PM Snack
2:15-5:00 PM Watch TV or listen to radio
5:00-6:30 PM Dinner
6:00 PM Browsing and blogs
6:45-8:00 Watch TV
8:00-8:15 Snack
8:15 PM Prayer and meditation
8:30-8:45 PM Affirmations
8:45-9:00 PM Walk
9:00-11:30 PM Watch TV or a movie
11:30-11:45 Get ready to go to bed
11:45 PM Questioning events of the day concerning what matters that is positive
11:50 PM-12:00 AM Sleep


I have come to realize that when it comes to my exercise schedule, I need to be specific as to what my exercises are.  Why I didn't think about that, I have no idea.  For instance, I do walk but there are times when I should say that I do ab exercises at 6:00 AM or watch on TV.  I have largely followed my schedule barring moments of illness and travel times.

Exercise Schedule 5/18/14

May 18, 2014
7:00 AM Wake up and get ready for the day
8:25-8:35 AM Housework
8:35 AM Breakfast and Medication
  Test Blood Sugar and record reading
9:00 AM Exercise-go online
9:00-10:30 AM Prayer and listening to music
10:30 AM Snack
11:00 AM Browsing online
11:30 AM Prayer and Bible reading
12:00 PM-2:00 PM Nap
2:00 PM Lunch and Medication
              Test blood sugar and record reading
3:00 Housework
3:30 Exercise
4:00 PM Listen to Radio and watch TV
5:00 PM Snack
5:10 PM Browse online and blog entries
6:00 PM Online Exercise videos
6:15 PM Dinner or evening meal
6:45 PM Browsing
7:45 PM Prayer and listening to music
8:15 PM Prayer and meditation
8:30 PM Affirmations
8:45 PM Walk
9:00 PM Watch TV or a movie
11:45 PM Questioning events of the day concerning what matters that is positive
11:50 PM-12:00 AM Sleep

Exercise Schedule 5/17/14

May 17, 2014
8:00 AM Wake up and get ready for the day
8:25-8:30 AM Housework
8:30 AM Breakfast and Medication
  Test Blood Sugar and record reading
9:00 AM Exercise-Walking
9:00-10:30  AM Prayer and listening to music
10:30 AM Snack
11:00 AM Browsing online
11:30 AM Prayer and Bible reading
12:00 PM-2:00 PM Nap
1:30 PM Lunch and Medication
              Test blood sugar and record reading
3:00 PM Snack
4:00 PM Listen to Radio and watch TV
4:30 PM Snack
5:00 PM Browse online and blog entries
6:00 PM Online Exercise videos
6:15 PM Dinner or evening meal
6:45 PM Browsing
7:45 PM Prayer and listening to music
8:15 PM Prayer and meditation
8:30 PM Affirmations
8:45 PM Walk
9:00 PM Watch TV or a movie
11:45 PM Questioning events of the day concerning what matters that is positive
11:50 PM-12:00 AM Sleep

Exercise Schedule for 5/16/14

May 16, 2014
7:30 AM Wake up
8:00 AM Prayer and meditation- fasting
9:00 AM Prayer and listening to music- fasting
9:30 AM Prayer and listening to music
10:00 AM listening to music
11:00 AM Lunch and medication
12:00 PM-2:00 PM Physical therapy
1:30 PM Afternoon Snack
2:00 PM Physical Therapy
4:00 PM Arrival/Watch TV
4:30 PM Evening meal
5:00 PM Browse online and blog entries
6:00 PM Medication
6:15 PM Test Blood Sugar
6:45 PM Browsing
7:45 PM Prayer
8:15 PM Prayer and meditation
8:30 PM Affirmations
8:45 PM Walk
9:15 PM Watch TV or a movie
11:45 PM Questioning events of the day concerning what matters that is positive
11:50 PM-12:00 AM Sleep

The Physical therapy has been beneficial I have at least two appointments left.  I have gained weight and I don't feel good about it.  As a matter of fact, I feel more motivated than ever.  I know of my limitations and my risks and I don't want that for me.  The session was at least 45 minutes long. I started the session with using the sitting stepper for a few minutes with an average of 80 steps per minute.

My exercise schedule for 5/15/14

May 15, 2014
6:30 AM Wake up and get ready for the day
7:00 AM Housework
7:30 AM Breakfast and Medication
Test Blood Sugar and record reading
8:00 AM Exercise-Walking
9:00 AM Prayer and listening to music
9:30 AM Snack
10:00 AM get ready for afternoon appointment
11:00 AM Prayer and Bible reading
12:00 PM-2:00 PM Physical therapy
1:30 PM Lunch and Medication
              Test blood sugar and record reading
2:00 PM Nap
4:00 PM Listen to Radio
4:30 PM Snack
5:00 PM Browse online and blog entries
6:00 PM Online Exercise videos
6:15 PM Dinner and Medication
6:45 PM Browsing
7:45 PM Prayer and listening to music
8:15 PM Prayer and meditation
8:30 PM Affirmations
8:45 PM Walk
9:15 PM Watch TV or a movie
11:45 PM Questioning events of the day concerning what matters that is positive
11:50 PM-12:00 AM Sleep

The exercise includes physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional exercise.  That doesn't sound so bad though. The problem is, I did not follow a schedule and I am a believer of following a schedule to the letter.  Even today, I have not followed the schedule barring aches, pains, and other things.  I realize that appointments are also among those other things.

Here is the real schedule for the day:

8:30-9:00 AM Wake Up

                         Test blood sugar and record reading

9:00-9:10 AM Housework

9:10-10:00 AM Browsing online

9:30-11:00 AM Lunch

                         medication

11:00-12:00 PM Watch TV

12:00-12:30 Browse online

12:30-2:00 PM listen to music/radio

2:00 PM-4:00 PM Browse/watch TV

4:00-6:30 PM Blogs

6:30-7:30 PM Dinner

                       Test Blood Sugar and record reading

7:30-8:00 PM Watch TV

8:00-9:00 PM Walk

9:00-12:00 AM Pray, meditate, and sleep time

I noticed that the real schedule doesn't match up with the supposed schedule or rather the one I supposed to follow.  I wonder how my life would improve if I were to follow a schedule.  There is a lot of time wasted there and I am bored.  I would like to be happy with myself but I am not sure where to begin.  In fact, I am not sure where to begin in life, period.  The second schedule is about my life.  I do wonder what it really says about me.  I shudder to think.