I want to be fit and in shape

Spiritually I am doing better.  Mentally I am okay as well.  I have to take a break today however.  I take breaks on Sundays and Tuesday.  I am supposed to be fit and in shape by now, but there is no use crying over spilled milk.  I forgive myself and I am beginning to no longer be self-conscious. I have been self-conscious for a long time and it is not a good thing to have.  I would like to stop being self-conscious and love and respect myself.   I don't always like myself but I am looking forward to this journey and to keep the weight off.  That is my problem.  I need to lose weight, but I also need to honor, love, and respect myself and stop being so self-conscious.  I believe that a fat person can love, love, and respect myself.  Not all fat people are so self-conscious.  So God loves me for who I am. What I look like is not God's highest priority I think.  I would like to be God and look at my own heart.  Morals and character are what a person either has or don't have it.  I just don't think that God will love me less regardless of my size.  However, I think that God wants me to not be self-conscious and exhibit a lack of self-control.  Those things are what I need to work on.  I believe that I am not the healthiest person but that is my goal.  As long as I don't engage in eating that is moderate and promoting healthy eating, then I believe that is what matters the most, at least to me.

Great news

Today, my mind is clear.  I feel so much better.  Exercise has helped me forget all of my ills and all of my problems.  I did walk for at least half an hour.  I burned 62 calories today and I hope to burn more.

Exercise is good for the spirit

Exercise is good for the mind and for the spirit.  I had no idea that exercise is good for one's spirit.  I have been spiritually aware for a long time despite the issues that I have.  I have doubts about being born again.  I think that exercise does a lot of good.

I want and need to change.

I want to exercise and I have skipped it.  I want to go back to exercising and eating healthy.  I am disappointed in myself.  What should I do?  I need to walk.  It is really a low impact exercise.  I am in need of exercising my mind but my body as well.  I want to be in shape.  It is sad that I am failing to do.

My feet are killing me

I did some walking yesterday and last night.  My feet are killing me now.  I would like to walk more today.  I already have the schedule planned out.

Tuesday break day

I am on a break today.  I exercise five days a week and so this is the second day of my break.

Another break

My knee hurts.  It was my left knee.  I have gotten lazy and I was back to my own routine of unhealthy eating habits and exercise.  But no more.  I plan to walk at least 15 minutes per day.  I want, need, and desire to lose weight.  I took a break today which I shouldn't have.