Consider schedule for week.
Consider how much time to exercise.
Consider what exercises I am able to do.
Consider the time of day when to exercise.
Consider my mindset period.
Consider my health.
Consider if I am in need of equipment for said exercise such as shoes or weights.
Consider the length of the actual exercise.
Consider if I am able to exercise that long.
Consider why I think exercise, in my mind, is still somewhat drudgery.
Consider what my own motivation is to exercise.
Consider my emotional and physical state during exercise.
Consider how I am supposed to gauge how much work I have done.
Consider my results and not forget to log them.
Consider the number of times to exercise per day.
I can exercise at least 6 days this week, but since I am a beginner, I could settle for no more than 3 days per week. I have all day to exercise during those three days. I have equipment, I can walk, and I can learn how to dance, maybe even on the same day for about 15-30 minutes a day. I don't want to stay at 15-30 minutes per day, but right now, I am and have become a sedentary person. I have gotten use to structure and stopping. Maybe I need to do something different, like exercise every Tuesday, Wednesday, and Saturday for 30 minutes a day walking and dancing to Cize. The sad thing is, unless I am at a computer, I get quite bored. I don't want to stay bored outside of my computer. I need to find out what it is I like to do other than what little I do throughout the course of a day, which isn't much. I have the equipment for walking, lifting weights, and recording the time of exercise and the number of calories burned. I finally realize that I can exercise for more than 10 minutes in a day, and burn at least 300 + calories. My other goal is to be able to enjoy the successes that I have.
The truth is, I need to relax and just let go. I hate boredom. I hate being bored. I would like to stick to something and enjoy it like I do listening to music and surfing the internet. I would to actually go places and meet new friends. I also realize that what is really holding me back is the limits that I have placed on myself such as guilt, and what I have learned or haven't learned because of my age. I am not a spring chicken, but I am still young. I am no longer 20-something or even 30-something. The truth is, there is nothing I can do about being 20, 30, or 35 anymore. I am 40+ and I don't just want to be treated fairly, like an adult.
I have been cooped up in this house for the rest of my days with a cat. The idea of the old maid comes to mind. I know I am going off topic here, but my point is, if I want to set realistic goals, I have to have a mindset that is based on reality. Here are some truths: I have lied, denied, and may have made excuses. I have been feeling guilty about gaining weight, when in fact, some of it isn't really just my fault. I DO have a hormonal condition. I CAN and WILL do something about it. I have begun to actually hate to exercise, but I also have to admit, I AM ABLE to see and do things in a different light. The truth is, I am motivated to exercise now more than ever. I just don't to write it, think it, or just be inspired by it. I want to do it.
It is as if every time I try to do something, I have learned it is based on a structure that I have mentally or physically put up for myself. I either set the bar too high or set the bar too low. Either way, I couldn't attain it. Considering having physical health problems as much as emotional issues, exercise could be of great benefit to me. I know that today is only a reflection, but the above list in red are things that I need to consider if I wish to be fit and healthy, not worry if my life would have been better if I weren't fat.
Consider how much time to exercise.
Consider what exercises I am able to do.
Consider the time of day when to exercise.
Consider my mindset period.
Consider my health.
Consider if I am in need of equipment for said exercise such as shoes or weights.
Consider the length of the actual exercise.
Consider if I am able to exercise that long.
Consider why I think exercise, in my mind, is still somewhat drudgery.
Consider what my own motivation is to exercise.
Consider my emotional and physical state during exercise.
Consider how I am supposed to gauge how much work I have done.
Consider my results and not forget to log them.
Consider the number of times to exercise per day.
I can exercise at least 6 days this week, but since I am a beginner, I could settle for no more than 3 days per week. I have all day to exercise during those three days. I have equipment, I can walk, and I can learn how to dance, maybe even on the same day for about 15-30 minutes a day. I don't want to stay at 15-30 minutes per day, but right now, I am and have become a sedentary person. I have gotten use to structure and stopping. Maybe I need to do something different, like exercise every Tuesday, Wednesday, and Saturday for 30 minutes a day walking and dancing to Cize. The sad thing is, unless I am at a computer, I get quite bored. I don't want to stay bored outside of my computer. I need to find out what it is I like to do other than what little I do throughout the course of a day, which isn't much. I have the equipment for walking, lifting weights, and recording the time of exercise and the number of calories burned. I finally realize that I can exercise for more than 10 minutes in a day, and burn at least 300 + calories. My other goal is to be able to enjoy the successes that I have.
The truth is, I need to relax and just let go. I hate boredom. I hate being bored. I would like to stick to something and enjoy it like I do listening to music and surfing the internet. I would to actually go places and meet new friends. I also realize that what is really holding me back is the limits that I have placed on myself such as guilt, and what I have learned or haven't learned because of my age. I am not a spring chicken, but I am still young. I am no longer 20-something or even 30-something. The truth is, there is nothing I can do about being 20, 30, or 35 anymore. I am 40+ and I don't just want to be treated fairly, like an adult.
I have been cooped up in this house for the rest of my days with a cat. The idea of the old maid comes to mind. I know I am going off topic here, but my point is, if I want to set realistic goals, I have to have a mindset that is based on reality. Here are some truths: I have lied, denied, and may have made excuses. I have been feeling guilty about gaining weight, when in fact, some of it isn't really just my fault. I DO have a hormonal condition. I CAN and WILL do something about it. I have begun to actually hate to exercise, but I also have to admit, I AM ABLE to see and do things in a different light. The truth is, I am motivated to exercise now more than ever. I just don't to write it, think it, or just be inspired by it. I want to do it.
It is as if every time I try to do something, I have learned it is based on a structure that I have mentally or physically put up for myself. I either set the bar too high or set the bar too low. Either way, I couldn't attain it. Considering having physical health problems as much as emotional issues, exercise could be of great benefit to me. I know that today is only a reflection, but the above list in red are things that I need to consider if I wish to be fit and healthy, not worry if my life would have been better if I weren't fat.
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