Reasons for exercise

So yesterday, I was doing a little spring cleaning.  Today I looked at myself in the mirror and I didn't like what I saw.  I saw a fat person.  I saw a person who was ashamed of my imperfections.  I really felt bad that I had allowed myself to get this way.  I realized how self-conscious I really am today and it wasn't in just things like movement but also how I appear.  If I felt that way about myself, I wonder how I appear to others.  I don't want to lose weight for other people.  I want to lose the weight for me.  This time, I am ready.  I did in fact do some stretches and I even used a stepper for the first time.  It was a workout that wasn't that bad, but I have got to stop worrying about the time limits.  That throws me off and makes exercise more of a chore than it has to be.

Spring Cleaning

I read that a spring cleaning can burn some calories.  I do believe that this is the case. With all of the lifting and other things spring cleaners have to do it burns calories.  So that is my exercise for today.  The truth is, I have no idea how many calories I have burned or what my weight watchers activity score is,  but the spring cleaning was well worth it.

What I need to do.

I only hope to do some exercise later on tonight.  I realize that I am going to end up not exercising at all if I don't plan or procrastinate.

Today....

I used the resistance band this morning.  It was a struggle but I realize what I need to do in the near future. I need to continue to use the fitness/resistance band that was given to me.  It would be rude to take it and not use it.  I have a back problem and it is time that I use whatever I have at my disposal.  I need to lose weight, but not even that registers.  What is going on with me?

Concerns about myself

I walked for a few minutes today.  Maybe I shouldn't even make plans.  I never seem to follow through.  I was given a resistance band that I received from the hospital.  However, I have yet to use it.  I even have instructions that come with it.   I wonder what is wrong with me.  I want to be like these people who love to exercise.  They eat, breathe, and sleep exercise.  I just don't have that yet.  I feel down because I have the motivation, but I lack the drive.  That worries me.

Today's session

I just received a resistance band today from my physical therapist.  I have also received a picture of exercises that I can use.  My back has its moment of pain.  I am also sore, so that could be why it has acted up somewhat.  I am in a state of relief as my muscles are not that tight.  I am concerned about the state of my health as it seems like I am physically falling apart.  I am 39 and I realize that I am nearing middle age as I am typing this, but I have wondered if I am too young for this.  It seems silly because we all age, but I do wonder about it, though the subject may seem too touchy even for me.  It was a 45 minute long session that I almost didn't feel like doing, but it was worth it.

Physical therapy musings

I plan to buy exercise equipment such as resistance bands, exercise balls, and dumbbells.  I would like to purchase them as soon as I can.  I used some of this equipment this morning, which stretched my back and strengthened it.  It was a 40 minute routine today and I felt so much better since I have been to physical therapy.  Because of my weight, I am embarrassed to say that unfortunately, I have become self-conscious and unable to do some exercises.  However, I won't let it stop me from reaching whatever goals I have.