Making a change for me

I haven't exercised for the past two days.  Well, I haven't done any exercise since Wednesday.  I have learned that especially as an overweight diabetic, that I cannot out-exercise a bad diet.  I have decided to make changes to my eating habits.  It will not be easy.  I am not of a healthy weight and nearly all of my health problems stem from my being overweight.  For years, I felt that being overweight, or rather, obese was something to be ashamed of.  I don't have a healthy relationship with food nor do I have a healthy relationship with myself.

I have struggled seeing myself as beautiful in the physical sense.  I am seen as a beautiful person with a beautiful personality.  Uh oh.  That means to me that I am not beautiful; it is not a complement.  It is not meant to be insulting, but that is how I come across.  It is sort of like the view that I have a beautiful face, but I need to lose weight.    That means that sometimes it would be nice for others to walk a mile in my shoes.  However, I wonder if that will be the case.  Anyways, I am writing about weight, exercise, and diet.  I do care what others think and I realize that if I overcome that and the guilt that I have.  I think it is time for me to just get over it and to just do something about it, such as learning to see me as beautiful and that yes, I am worthy, and beautiful, fat, or thin.

Results for 3/29/17

Here are my results:

Walking
Cardio
Calories burned 390
Kcal burned 95
Length of time: 19 minutes 1 second
97.4 steps per minutes
1947 aerobic steps
0.4 miles
2.1 miles/hr approximately
Medium Impact 2118 steps

I will definitely be back.

I was and will be on a break until tomorrow.  I am okay and I will be back.

Inspiration, goals, and aspirations

I am not only inspired, I am doing so.  Unfortunately, I am not only inspired, I wish to do so.  The problem is, I have not made any plans to exercise. Right now, I realize that I am too out of shape.  It isn't an excuse, but 10-15 minutes per day, at least 3 days a week is a good start.  I would like to exercise for 30 minutes a day, but I don't have the physical fitness just yet.  Because I don't have the physical fitness maybe I should exercise more.  It supposedly takes a while, or at least three weeks to get used to an exercise plan.  Sadly, I need to make a specific plan of exercise, because my goal is to lose weight, and be fit.  My goal is not be thin, but to be fit.  Making a specific plan (as well as being patient) will become a way to get closer to my goal.  I also look forward to having that kind of patience and I am not only motivated to exercise, I have exercised yesterday and I wish to keep exercising so that I can make it a habit.

Walking exercise results

Exercise : walking

Impact: low to medium

Pulse: 119

Number of calories burned: 273

Tiime: 13.3 minutes

Speed: 2.1 mph

Consistency in exercise

I would like to know why it seems easier to lose weight.  Unfortunately, it is actually harder to do it in reality.  I would like to actually exercise on a consistent basis.  I often get inspired to lose weight. I have a large belly and a weak core.  Whenever I do exercise, I actually notice a difference, but in a positive light.  Eating a healthy diet along with exercise makes me feel so much better.  I need and want to be consistent.  The problem is, not only is consistency a strength, I would not know where to begin.  Maybe I should just follow my advice and just walk.  Walking is a great exercise with all the benefits of exercise such as a more fit, toned body and a clearer head.  Maybe I should start being consistent whatever the exercise.  I am inspired and ready to be consistent.

My appointment

So I went to my appointment today.  Though I did gain a pound today.  However, if I were to be encouraged by even that, I realized that though I did gain weight, I was told that my weight has been stable.  I guess that means that I didn't have a large weight gain that would mean an unstable weight loss or gain.  Well, I recall the analogy about the car and exercise motivation.  That is something that I need to keep in mind.