How I am feeling at the moment

I am not going to lie.  I don't exercise.  I hate exercise.  I procrastinate.  I am not lying.  Exercise is something that I skirt around.  I wish I didn't do that but I do.  I need help.  I realize that I need to lose weight.  I want to lose weight.  I desire to lose weight.  I need to exercise.  I want to exercise.  I desire to exercise.  Maybe that is the problem.  I need help and the will to be proactive.  That is where going outside the box comes in.