I am taking a break. I realize that I am spouting out too many I can do its. I am also spouting out talks of just doing it. They are not helping me. I am lazy and I procrastinate. I have difficulty following directions at times and my black and white thinking makes things worse. I can say it is time for me to change, though it is. I have yet to begin. What am I waiting for? Who am I waiting for? Why am I waiting for? Words jinx it. Emotions jinx my weight loss. Everything just seems so hard. I know that there is more to life than food. Maybe my last sentence is one of many issues I have facing my problems. With all of this, I realize that the room and possibility for change is good, despite how grim it looks right now. Man, I am lousy trying to encourage myself.
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