Right now, I am only starting off slow. I am over 300 pounds and I am considered super morbidly obese. I am worried about myself. I have every reason to exercise and diet. This is an issue that I have to face. I am lazy, that is true. I am also not ready to diet, exercise, and therefore, lose weight, that is true, too. I have broken a chair. I don't walk as fast as I should. My health isn't optimal as I am diabetic. I also have high blood cholesterol and high blood sugar. I have tried everything. In fact, this is my third time trying Weight Watchers. I am okay now, but I have made no progress, no matter how hard I try. I just want to give up. Nothing has made me realize that I need to lose weight. I don't have that one moment that would make me say, "I need to lose". I have that voice in my head that is non-existent and I just don't know why I am doing. Was I losing weight, or trying to please other people or compare myself to others? Am I really doing it for myself? There are just times when I feel like I am only existing. I hate having this feeling. I just cannot take it anymore.
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