I would like to be brought back to life

Maybe or starting today I need to get back to my own routine.  The problem is, I have no real routine. Today, I feel dead inside, at least a bit of sadness.  With such great sadness I dare say that I give up. Maybe I need to get some help.  I believe that I am lazy.  I believe that I have lost the desire to improve myself.  I hope that this is not the case.